Hi LH and welcome to our community forums
It pleasing to see you've found your way here. Well done.You've covered a lot of things in your post. I'll try to cover everything.
From what you say it seems you're not sure if you're stressed, have anxiety or some other issue. There's an anxiety depression checklist on our webpage that asks some questions. You could use this to get an initial idea, however, I'd be more inclined to go to suggest you go to your doctor to discuss how your feeling and if appropriate get a referral to a health professional, e.g. psychologist.
Loss of financial security is always a worry. So you're not alone there. If you want - do a search on our website to see what others are saying. The search field is at the top of the page. Some of the keywords you could use for searching include - financial, financial security, financial stress.
When you say you strong feelings you have no friends / people don't like you, what is it that makes you say that. You've talked about your future mother in law favouring your partner's brother's wife. Though how you've come to that conclusion perhaps needs to be talked through with someone who can help put perspective on the matter. For example, are you able to talk with your partner about your feelings? Alternatively you say you talk with your mother - could she help you?
I have PTSD, anxiety and depression. I know that I have spent my life thinking / feeling I know what others think of me. My psychologist has helped me work through this and helped me to STOP -
- overgeneralising
- jumping to conclusions - mindreading, fortune telling
- self blaming
- discounting the positives
It isn't easy to STOP, but it is doable - after many years of focussed therapy. My self esteem and self worth have increased dramatically.
Hope some of this helps LH. Keep reaching out if and when you want to.
Kind regards
PamelaR
