Hi op .
l hear what your saying l've been through a lot of it myself too the last 7yrs after marriage. l know by the sounds of it you probably weren't married but sometimes l think it's worst to have had it and lost anyway yaknow. And now l feel as if l don't make a decision about someone soon l waste more years then it's too late .
Not sure if your interested in meeting someone if it was to happen but ever used a date site. ? Seems to be the way these days and with the computer world people seem to be getting more and more isolated so it might be a way of getting out or opportunity for you without even getting out .
If you liked the sharing thing too maybe you could look for someone that wants something long term next. Lotta people out there getting older but don't own a place probably looking to just settle in somewhere if you get along they might stay forever.
Another thing crossed my mind a few years back was taking in a foster care child because they were advertising a lot and really needed the carers and l love kids and hate knowing they're in that situation . Didn't in the end because my daughter comes and goes a bit, not enough , but she was only 16 then went through the divorce l thought maybe having some strange kid here might upset her so l didn't do it. Being male to l'd probably be grilled so much by the agency beforehand it's probly not worth bothering with so all thing considered l passed in the end.
Anyway , just a few thoughts, hang in there.
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