Hi Yggy,
Life certainly can throw you a curve ball or two especially when you least expect or need it.
I have PTSD, Depression, Anxiety and Panic Attacks ....its a very fine juggling act to keep on top of each of these illnesses.
I have had my illnesses for over 4o years - all my life.
It has taken me along time to come to terms with my illnesses and many a time I fell off the proverbial hill tumbled to the bottom and dusted myself off and climbed up again, again and again.
Its not easy but nothing in life is truly easy....it takes momentous effort on our part every single day just to function with a degree of normality - our normal is most certainly different from others.
What works for us may not work for someone else, that's why we must persevere.
Just a little slower, at your own pace and not expect, demand or want to much from ourselves.
Because all your hard work will backfire and you will have to start again, that sucks big time.
Yggy, Its about finding that happy medium where you can cope with each day, in a happy positive way.
Try channeling your anger into something positive that will give you a sense of pride, pleasure and enjoyment.
I found gardening helps, my minds active so I don't have to dwell on the negative things for a while at least and my hands are busy in a positive way chasing worms and weeds around the garden bed...
Before the PTSD, Anxiety and Panic Attacks I use to enjoy gardening but fear controlled my days and I couldn't go outside....once I learnt to control it not allow it to control me I could get out of the house and start living again.
I forget that I had a life before these illnesses that was still there for me to enjoy again.
Its in all of us we just have keep searching, never ever give up or give in to the illness no matter how hard it gets find just one positive reason to go on and build to two, then three.
Like my friend Winston Churchill wrote in his book The Black Dog it will sit on your couch, be your friend, you can pat it but watch out it will bite you if you let it or something like that.
So I harnessed that black dog and keep a tight leash on him everyday.
Never do I allow him to run loose, I'm in control and with that thought in mind I cope with life to best that I can never mind what other people say or think....my mind, my body, my life.
Best of luck Yggy
