PTSD and Trauma

PTSD for Medical and First Responders

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Hi, Well obviously this my situation. I was hoping to find others here that might have a similar background to chat with, it can be so hard to talk about this stuff with non-med people (and I mean no disrespect, it's just often graffic or upsetting t... View more

Hi, Well obviously this my situation. I was hoping to find others here that might have a similar background to chat with, it can be so hard to talk about this stuff with non-med people (and I mean no disrespect, it's just often graffic or upsetting to others). Im a 40 year old female that has spent the last 10years in the State Trauma Hospital as an Anaesthetic Technician. My PTSD was brought about after years of exposure to shocking traumas, deaths, and no support from management. I would love to hear from anyone that has a similar story, or just wants to chat. Cheers

Issues with extreme self criticism

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Wasn’t sure what to list this under but I thought PTSD and trauma would be the closest thing since most of my thinking patterns have probably stemmed from that. It’s been a long time since I’ve written anything on here. I forgot this site existed for... View more

Wasn’t sure what to list this under but I thought PTSD and trauma would be the closest thing since most of my thinking patterns have probably stemmed from that. It’s been a long time since I’ve written anything on here. I forgot this site existed for a long time, I forgot about my account, until just now. For a long time I thought I was fine without therapy, that I didn’t need it now. It’s clear to me now though that I need serious help. The way I treat myself sometimes is abusive. Even I know that. When I make a mistake I feel the need to punish myself and have sometimes hurt myself. I hold myself to an impossibly high standard and it’s physically and mentally killing me. I’m pushing myself so hard at work I’ve been throwing up during shifts. I’ve been neglecting my basic human needs in the pursuit of money, going all day some days without any food or water when it is easily accessible to me. Yet I still don’t eat or drink enough. Am I self sabotaging? It wouldn’t be the first time. I don’t expect anyone to respond to this but I just needed to vent and some people close to me are worried about me and I wanted them to know I’m serious about trying to get help.

Cptsd

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Hi,I have quite alot of trouble trying to believe people can think positively of me due to my abusive household growing up. It makes me so angry at points because im so convinced that my closest friends are thinking awful things about me, how im not ... View more

Hi,I have quite alot of trouble trying to believe people can think positively of me due to my abusive household growing up. It makes me so angry at points because im so convinced that my closest friends are thinking awful things about me, how im not special, that they like someone more than me therefore value them more, and it really impacts me. does anyone know anything that helps ease this feeling? i just for some reason find it so hard to shake, no matter how hard i want to believe people.

Callout for Information Please

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Dear All,I have been diagnosed with PTSD since May this year.I have hardly had any treatment for it and would like to ask people who have: What treatments are available in Australia for PTSD?andWho provides them to you? I have a psychologist and trea... View more

Dear All,I have been diagnosed with PTSD since May this year.I have hardly had any treatment for it and would like to ask people who have: What treatments are available in Australia for PTSD?andWho provides them to you? I have a psychologist and treating psychiatrist. We tend to address anxiety and depression first in our sessions.Much appreciated for any answers. ABC01

Religious cults

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I was approached by an insidious religious cult which has some very extreme and dangerous views. It is a patriarchal society where older males are in control of the group and women and children are reportedly forced into servitude to name just a few ... View more

I was approached by an insidious religious cult which has some very extreme and dangerous views. It is a patriarchal society where older males are in control of the group and women and children are reportedly forced into servitude to name just a few of their disgusting ideologies. Needless to say I made it clear that I was not interested in joining. The women in this cult are very young and I am old so why did they approach me? Easy, I'm an older, single, retired woman who lives alone, has mental health issues, has no support whatsoever, owns my own house and has a small amount of savings. If you join this cult your assets become their assets. I wish I could identify this cult so you could read about them on the internet. I can say that SBS ran a series on cults a few years ago and this cult was featured, except it was the US one which is where it originated from. I just need some support right now as I've never come across anything like them. The older men just seem to be playing with me like a cat with a mouse. It's their way of punishing me. I feel very isolated, disempowered and vulnerable. Merricat

Recent traumatic event

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Hello its been a while since I have been on here.Yesterday I witnessed a traumatic incident and have felt very sad and extremely low since. There has been some loss in my life over the past few years, not sure if this is the catalyst?I’m trying to go... View more

Hello its been a while since I have been on here.Yesterday I witnessed a traumatic incident and have felt very sad and extremely low since. There has been some loss in my life over the past few years, not sure if this is the catalyst?I’m trying to go about my day(s) since this event however I am struggling, but don’t want to actually tell everyone what happened, how do I explain to others how I’m feeling, without having to explain the whole story, I’m fine with close friends but what about at work etc. any insight would be appreciated xx

Narcissistic abuse

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Okay it sounds stupid of me, so please no disparaging remarks. Because no one is more disgusted by stupidly and gullibility than me. This is a long story and truly appreciate any who bothers to read the whole thing. I met a guy on a depression app, I... View more

Okay it sounds stupid of me, so please no disparaging remarks. Because no one is more disgusted by stupidly and gullibility than me. This is a long story and truly appreciate any who bothers to read the whole thing. I met a guy on a depression app, I was suffering from excruciating anti-depressant pill withdrawals. At first he provided friendship and daily 11 hour texting. He was like my saviour when I had no real life friends or family to depend on. It wasn't a dating app so nothing that conspired was something I predicted nor gave a thought to. My daily life with withdrawals was like walking through hell and he gave me endless support, kindness and advice. He told me from the start he was married and his wife cheated on him. In the early stages of friendship I tried to offer advice and suggestions about counselling etc. Although I was uncomfortable he showered me with Christmas presents and then a birthday present. I told him to stop since it made me uncomfortable. Months passed and a emotional bond was formed. He has two children and would show me videos of him feeding them or keep me informed of his activities as a dad. I use to ask him if he had anyone to help him and he would say no. He slowly painted a picture of somebody solely looking after his children and separated. After awhile the compliments came forward and slowly the language became more as a partner not a friend. I slowly developed feelings for him as we ended up being quite intimate. Only to discover after asking point blank about his wife and have him talk about her like it was an often spoken of topic. So all this time he lied by omitting his wife still did indeed live in the house.

Perants

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Hi I was just wondering if i could find support for parental truma I don't live with them anymore I just wanna get through it

Working from From

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Hi All, I have been working from home for the last four years and found that this has lead to Alcohol addiction ( I never used to drink prior ) and also a massive decline in my mental health and ability to socialise in general I even hate doing video... View more

Hi All, I have been working from home for the last four years and found that this has lead to Alcohol addiction ( I never used to drink prior ) and also a massive decline in my mental health and ability to socialise in general I even hate doing video links now. Has anyone else experienced this and what has helped?

Seeking Advice

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Hi all, I am currently seeking advice on if I should reply to my past abuser (who is also my older sister), who reached out to me today.I've been having pretty bad nightmare about her since I found out other family members are back in contact to "Giv... View more

Hi all, I am currently seeking advice on if I should reply to my past abuser (who is also my older sister), who reached out to me today.I've been having pretty bad nightmare about her since I found out other family members are back in contact to "Give her a second chance". For her to suddenly message me when we haven't spoken in many years has thrown me in a loop.My question is, is it worth the closure to hear what she has to say?Thank you for your time.

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