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A_Tech PTSD for Medical and First Responders
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Hi, Well obviously this my situation. I was hoping to find others here that might have a similar background to chat with, it can be so hard to talk about this stuff with non-med people (and I mean no disrespect, it's just often graffic or upsetting t... View more

Hi, Well obviously this my situation. I was hoping to find others here that might have a similar background to chat with, it can be so hard to talk about this stuff with non-med people (and I mean no disrespect, it's just often graffic or upsetting to others). Im a 40 year old female that has spent the last 10years in the State Trauma Hospital as an Anaesthetic Technician. My PTSD was brought about after years of exposure to shocking traumas, deaths, and no support from management. I would love to hear from anyone that has a similar story, or just wants to chat. Cheers

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JRC1962 Trauma childhood and adulthood trauma
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Hi I'm 61 years old. My father is nearly 90. He was so critical of his children when we were growing up, and his words still haunt me. We get on well now but every now and then he will say something that brings it all back. It's just a relationship w... View more

Hi I'm 61 years old. My father is nearly 90. He was so critical of his children when we were growing up, and his words still haunt me. We get on well now but every now and then he will say something that brings it all back. It's just a relationship where I am numb to it. I married a man who drank and gambled and womanised, I was so naïve and damaged from childhood experiences so I just put up with it all, and was told constantly how bad I was. He died 20 years ago. I struggled socially to fit in with everyone I knew and to feel good about my relationships, even though I have old friends I never feel like I belong anywhere and I'm always anxious. I work in a responsible job, I have two daughters, one of which has had terrible trauma from school. I just remember every bad thing that has ever happened and can't move past that even though I've also had some good things happen over the last 20 years. Thanks for listening. I don't think I'll ever not feel anxious socially.

Patches63 Psychologist vs psychiatrist …. Which is best
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Couple months ago my local Dr referred me to physiologist for CBT for PTSD with events going back over many decades. As part of journaling I typed up a timeline showing yr of event, my age at the time and brief summary of event. First 2 sessions with... View more

Couple months ago my local Dr referred me to physiologist for CBT for PTSD with events going back over many decades. As part of journaling I typed up a timeline showing yr of event, my age at the time and brief summary of event. First 2 sessions with psychologist were complete taken up by going through the timeline and her asking questions. 3rd session I was already upset, couple days prior had been told by one of my friends herself and her hubby moving interstate before end of the year. This information triggered my fears of abandonment with horrible nightmares of me being completely on my own. Psychologist spent 3rd session trying to calm me down and talked about theory of how trauma affects the brain plus talked about flight, fright, freeze reactions.local dr at recent appointment has doubled my dosage of anti depressants and said he thinks I will be better off being referred to a psychiatrist due to my PTSD. When I asked local gp why he thinking about referring me to different therapist after such short period of time his reply was for me to discuss with my psychologist at next session, discuss with her and then have next review with local gp within a week of having next session with psychologist. Im confused. I don’t understand why about 7 weeks ago local dr referred me to psychologist and after having only seen psychologist for 3 sessions local dr now thinking psychiatrist is more appropriate. has anyone experienced similar? Any thoughts or experiences regarding the different therapists for PTSD, OCD and associated anxiety? Patches

Alesandra Disengaging from toxic mother and siblings
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Hello. I grew up in a household with two extremely narcissistic parents. On top of that my father was very verbally abusive, intimidating and would constantly put me down in front of others. He continued this behaviour towards me until he died 5 year... View more

Hello. I grew up in a household with two extremely narcissistic parents. On top of that my father was very verbally abusive, intimidating and would constantly put me down in front of others. He continued this behaviour towards me until he died 5 years ago. I have no feelings towards him anymore so don't grieve his death or wish he was alive so I could confront him. My mother is elderly with early dementia and the wreckage that she allowed under her watch is something I can't forgive. She was absent when I was growing up - always off doing something for her work, her social life and her status. She was also emotionally absent. She raised a bully of a son - my brother - who bullied me into adulthood and sexually abused me as a child. When I told my mother about the abuse when I was in my 20s she said "worse things have happened to people." My sister, like my mother is a narcissistic and extremely superficial. She wants my brother's approval constantly so will support him in any dispute. A year after my father's death the trauma of my childhood and the ongoing bullying and degrading behaviour of my brother just came to the fore. I lost it and confronted each of the family members. Since then (4 years ago) we have barely spoken and despite therapy I don't feel I have moved on. I have been demonised by my brother, sister, their partners and their kids and have no contact wth them apart from occasional emails (which are extremely triggering) about my mother's care. I also loathe my mother but because I was constantly made to feel by my father and then my siblings that I was the cause of all the family fights and that "I would kill my mother" I am in a constant state of guilt when I don't see her. When I do see her I have a simmering rage. I would love to know how I can disengage from my family of origin. I have constant suicidal thoughts because of them. They will never reach out to me in any way or show any remorse and I just want to have nothing to do with them. But cutting them out completely is so hard. Any help appreciated.

BS TW DV and SA
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TW DV and SA Hey everyone. I think I just need somewhere to vent a little bit. I am a chef, qualified in march. Earlier in my apprenticeship though I worked with a chef who I thought was really great. I worked for a big company so sometimes it was ha... View more

TW DV and SA Hey everyone. I think I just need somewhere to vent a little bit. I am a chef, qualified in march. Earlier in my apprenticeship though I worked with a chef who I thought was really great. I worked for a big company so sometimes it was hard to get that one on one learning. But he really took the time too teach me and show me a lot of really cool things. I really enjoyed working with him,he was a bit rough around the edges but working with him I really felt like I had found a mentor. He left the place I work for almost a year ago now. And I have just found out that he has been arrested and charged for Domestic violence against his wife. I feel shattered and angry. I come from a back ground of family violence and sexual assault and I am always SO vigilant about seeing the sighns. Even my partner says I'm too harsh on people because the second I get a funny feeling I won't go near that person. And there were sighns. He would be late from work because he had to take his wife to the hospital. Or he would have rage fits that were really unnecessary and uncalled for. Being a chef though, it's really common (not right! But common) for people to get angry. So I just filed it under that i guess. One particular instance was one night I had to run the kitchen because he couldn't make it to work at the last minute. And the next day he said it was because him and his wife went out with friends and she had a bit too much to drink and slipped on the road side and split her eye open, he had to take her to the hospital and he even said that the doctors had pulled her aside to ask if it was DV. He said he understood though but he'd never do that. I feel so blind sided. Again. I feel like I should have seen something. Not that it's my responsibility or anything. But just once again I fell for someone being kind to me and they turned out to be someone completely different Too top it off my dad messaged me this week for the first time in about 5 years. I don't talk to my dad. He was one of my abusers. I just feel so anxious lately. And I know all of this contributing to it. Its affecting my work and my partner keeps making saying I haven't seemed myself lately. I just feel so sad and alone.

riddle95 Trauma from childhood resurfacing
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Hi world. I feel like I'm really struggling lately with old trauma resurfacing. I haven't been able to sleep the past few nights because I just get blasted with memories. I can feel it physically and I've started having random dreams that are variati... View more

Hi world. I feel like I'm really struggling lately with old trauma resurfacing. I haven't been able to sleep the past few nights because I just get blasted with memories. I can feel it physically and I've started having random dreams that are variations of the trauma or just stressful in general. I'm just finding it hard to deal with and I feel like I have no one to talk to.

Echtis My experience with EMDR
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Hello. The initial session left me feeling like a hollow shell of rudimentary human emotions. I felt safe, but I also felt like no one, as though I was in disassociation. Since then my feelings have felt extraordinarily one note, though I have troubl... View more

Hello. The initial session left me feeling like a hollow shell of rudimentary human emotions. I felt safe, but I also felt like no one, as though I was in disassociation. Since then my feelings have felt extraordinarily one note, though I have trouble telling what I feel at all still. I think the worst part of it was that I felt stripped of any personality, drive or wants since the session, like I have been mentally wiped. In theory this is a good thing, but instead I feel lost and soulless, acting out old habits and hobbies for reasons I do not know why, for I no longer care about them. Has anyone else felt this way from EMDR or any other treatment?

Patricia-1 Miss
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I have been struggling with anxiety and depression for a very long time. I am struggling to make new friends and I am not sure how to cope with my anxiety and depression. Sometimes it’s hard for me to get through the day I struggle to do anything

I have been struggling with anxiety and depression for a very long time. I am struggling to make new friends and I am not sure how to cope with my anxiety and depression. Sometimes it’s hard for me to get through the day I struggle to do anything

lisa1987 Ocd and thoughts of death
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dpes anyone have ocd and constant thoughts of death and dying? Keeps going around my head won't stop

dpes anyone have ocd and constant thoughts of death and dying? Keeps going around my head won't stop

Beccy_g Greif
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I'm trying to deal with the suicide of my son, march 23'

I'm trying to deal with the suicide of my son, march 23'

Patches63 Wanting to isolate
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TW: content may trigger due to info about emotional abuse/DVFor years I’ve not been comfortable being around lots of people. Family gatherings have me feeling on edge and wanting to go home just after I arrive. I have Adult Separation Anxiety and fea... View more

TW: content may trigger due to info about emotional abuse/DVFor years I’ve not been comfortable being around lots of people. Family gatherings have me feeling on edge and wanting to go home just after I arrive. I have Adult Separation Anxiety and fears of abandonment and struggle in make/keep friends. Due to this I have small group of 6 friends.recently received message from one of these people checking up on me as I hadnt been online for couple of days. After mentioning I was struggling with anxiety and had been keeping to myself I was chastised. Part of me knows she trying to do right thing but it immediately took me back to early teen years where I was emotionally controlled. That night the nightmares started again. Nightmares of times I had blocked out for decades and now wish I could get rid off. From early to mid teens I was child of DV and was emotionally controlled by my dad. Everything I did, everywhere I went only happened if he allowed it to happen. This at times included me not being able to attend days of secondary school. Late home from anywhere or did anything without permission and I was verbally abused.In my nightmares at times my dad is the abuser and other times it is the person who recently sent me the message. I have trouble trusting anyone and this has left me feeling even more worried about trusting anyone. Since getting the message only times I’ve left the house has been for bare essential items. Had made arrangements to spend few hours with different friend today but found I couldn’t pluck up the courage. Phoned and explained I couldn’t make it, again. Know isolating and being on my own ( have pets for company ) isnt good long term for mental health but at the moment just want to everyone to leave me alone Patches