No idea how to squeeze this all into 2500 characters. We grew up with an
abusive alcoholic father. My diagnoses include PTSD, severe depression,
severe anxiety, Asperger's, panic disorder, sensory processing disorder,
bipolar disorder (type 3), and a...
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No idea how to squeeze this all into 2500 characters. We grew up with an
abusive alcoholic father. My diagnoses include PTSD, severe depression,
severe anxiety, Asperger's, panic disorder, sensory processing disorder,
bipolar disorder (type 3), and a bunch of other stuff. Basically, I
haven't been able to cope with the real world for a really long time.
Almost every time I have contact with my parents, I spiral into a deep
depression. DEEP. And it's always triggered by something very small. The
last time I was triggered was in August last year and I haven't
recovered. And now it's worse. My little sister was diagnosed with stage
four lung cancer in October last year, which is spreading, on top of the
other massive health issues she's been dealing with all her life. She
has four boys, all have the same father, and three of them are the
product of partner rape. She is not 'with' him anymore, but at the
moment he lives with her because she can't take care of the kids by
herself. And now he wants sex. She says she's not going to let it
happen. I'm worried given his behaviour in the past, and now that she's
weaker than ever. Full back-story on all this stuff would take thousands
of words, so to put it as simply as I can: Dad triggered me badly last
year, my little sister is dying and living with a monster, she has four
boys who will soon lose their mum and be stuck with their dreadful
father, I am barely able to cope with my own children (who have mental
health issues of their own) so there's no possibility of us taking in
her kids after she passes, and for the second time in six months I am .
. . I don't even know. I have no control over my emotions, I have to
pull over when I'm driving to scream (literally scream), and I can say
with almost 100% certainty that if I lived closer to my parents and
sister I would have already been arrested for murder - of my father last
year, or of my sister's ex this past Friday. I'm on medication, and I'm
seeing a psychologist at the moment, and we were making some progress
but what happened on Friday has set me waaaaaaaay back. I don't know how
many times I can come back from this stuff, and it's only going to get
worse. When my sister passes, I will lose it. Guaranteed. I don't even
know what I'm asking of you guys here. Whatever you can offer will be
greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading xxx
PTSD for Medical and First Responders
