Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[Guest_1643]

hey MM i have literally no doubt ull be very healthy very soon in all the ways you want to be

u love excercise and had a healthy mentality about everything so your body will show you how strong it is and bounces back

we've all had those guys who weren't quite right but i say good for u for giving it a go

i've beeen going to a mindfulness group and more i realise how we just learn through trying etc - so monkey Good on u for all the cool things u are trying.

You sound adventurous, fun and open to life. That's so awesome.
I'm so sad and sorry to read about the ups and downs with ur Dad etc but glad u have a supportive mum and sounds like a few lovely friends too. I love camping and nature too, it is very therapeutic. x

[Guest_1055]

Thank you for letting us know how you are getting on MM.

I was starting to miss the passion, drive, and the "never give up" character trait you have.

Awesome loosing the weight. Good on you for all your effort there.

[monkey_magic]

Hi everyone,

I just love this support forum and reading all of the great things you all add to your posts. It adds to my life!

I've been busy working, looking for somewhere to live, spending time with family, except dad, shopping, cooking, swimming, gyming.

Now I've lost 11kgs & have a tan from all the outdoor swimming I was doing.

I'm still on struggle street some days ( impact on my body from past forced drugging) but it really helps to focus on what I'm doing moving forward.

It may be a struggle but it's worth it.

Italian guy has still totally disappeared- good riddance. I'm glad he wasn't in my life longer. And yes, he wasn't quite right.

Mum brought home two designer bags a lady from her work was giving away and I've got them 🤍😁

Mum also wants to use our travel vouchers from a Hawaiian trip we had to cancel due to covid. She wants to go to Cairns for a week so it looks like I'll be there in about a month.

I'm also going to do a pathology collection course. So, if you need to get a blood or urine test, I might just be taking it in the future. 😆

With the supplements I'm taking it's for different things so skin, digestion, joints, and a probiotic and I'm sticking to the recommended dose. I also have a multivitamin drink whenever I feel like one.

Hope you all had a great Easter 🐰 💕

[ecomama]

Oh WOW monkey, that all sounds AMAZING!

Just like YOU!

That Pathology Course sounds great!
You are SO caring and would be so wonderful in that job, GO YOU! wow.

That trip to Cairns?
Wow lol. Sounds wonderful...

All that weight just dripping off you, well done you. You're an unstoppable machine!

HUGE hugs, you're bringing everything you WANT into your life.

Enjoy your trip!

Love EMxxxx

[Ggrand]

Hey Magic...

Its so beautiful to hear that your moving forward in your life....I think you and your spirit guide found each other and restored your soul with the warrior we all know and love....

Pathology collection, sounds ideal for someone who cares about other people....You are a very intelligent girl and you will have no trouble passing that course or any other course you choose....

Wow 11 Kilos..how good is that...well done sweetheart...your a huge inspiration for others here..you always have been and always will be....

Sending you my love and caring hugs dear Magic warrior lady.....💜🤗🌹🦋..

Grandy..

[monkey_magic]

So much love and inspiration from you two 🤗🥰

I suppose I am feeling more connected to " spirit" or my spirit guide.

I had a really good time with my upper- class older friend from work. We went to a cafe in an expensive area which cost us $ 75 and he payed most of the bill. This is the same guy I've spoken about previously who I think I was saying I had feelings for and I was considering being with but was concerned about the age gap. These days we still get along and sometimes hang out after work and still chat on the phone. I have a really great time with him. I also had an adult dream about him months ago.

I took a very big step for me and I'm quite proud I made this move. An Aussie 40 something yr old builder contacted me about renting a room at his place. I thought we got along very well over the ph and I liked the look of him in his photo on the site to advertise and look for a place and I cancelled my other inspections, transfered the bond to his account and was excited about moving to a great area in a spacious house much closer to work.

But then, I did some digging.

I looked him up on social media and found him and started to become wary. So many different things went through my head and I was feeling like perhaps this isn't such a great idea.

I spent 1hr 30min waiting on hold but luckily was able to reverse the bond transaction, then I blocked his number and deleted my profile from the looking for a place to live website. I simply couldn't bear the hassle.

It's usually not like me to ghost someone but I had a bad feeling. I could have totally over- reacted but I suppose once bitten, twice shy right?

Oh well...

Have been inactive recently bcas of a frustrating painful knee and sore other knee that doesn't seem to be recovering grrr....

Need more fat to drop off me- in Ecomama's brilliant words so I'm eating less. I really really want to be active though...this feels very unfair. Like I'm now living in an older persons body.

Hope you all enjoy your Sunday! Much love.

🙈🙉🐵

[Guest_1055]

Hi MM

I love reading your thread, and seeing what you are up to. Plus I think you send out your emotions along with your words. And I tend to pick up on them.

Think it was a great decision of yours trusting your intuition about this builder / renting a room person.

Have you ever considered house sitting/ animal sitting? Not sure if you like animals or not. But what you do is look after someones pets for a set time. Sometimes months. And you live usually rent free and exchange for that. The owners go away on holidays or extended holidays or maybe extended stays in the hospital. Sometimes there may not be any pets. You just need to water their house plants and stuff like that. I cannot remember the name of the website, but there a few of them in Australia. Lots of people use them as a way to see more of Australia rent free.

You are doing so good losing all the weight. You have inspired me there.

Sorry about the sore knees and such. Can you soak in an epsom salt bath, do you think that may help at all. Or is it more joint pain? Inflammation maybe?

Anyways have a good day MM. Cheers to you

Shelley

[monkey_magic]

Hi Shelly and all,

This will post will probably be leaning towards the negative side because this week has been up and down.

Shell I used to pay to be advertised on a house-sitting website many years ago. I've never had the privilege of doing it though. Bcas of covid I don't think there will be much available but I guess I could look around.

Ive been in pain all week and it's been hard to the point of imposing on my work life. I have hurting, sore joints which have prevented me from exercising and an aching head which got that bad I left work early yesterday.

Please if you don't have to take psychiatric drugs...don't. it is even hard on the body being off them. This is my experience and I know it's different for everyone but it's been a scary and painful road for me. I'm only 38.

I always knew once job keeper ended I was going to put in more hours but with feeling so ill I've had to pull back a bit. It really is so unfair.

Its also tough at work with all the bosses in. It's a different environment there working during the day and I was hating it at times. I did find the strength to get through it though but I've found myself more stressed out.

Shell I could try Epsom salts although I have trouble fitting into our bath these days. 😔

[ecomama]

Dear monkey

I'm really sorry your knee is hurting so much. IDK but my instincts are telling me to see a good Podiatrist. You can get a Health Care Plan to see one for a really cheap price. What do you think?
I'm saying this because I also had issues with my feet, affecting my knees - causing a lot of pain, swelling, throbbing etc.

Indeed I saw 3 others who more or less did what they could but nothing really got me to a great place.... THEN I saw a miracle maker lol. She threw out all the other things the previous Podiatrists said and I'm amazed at the healing!

Our whole body's "alignment" stems from our feet.

I LOVE that you did your research and got OUT of that potentially unsafe environment of moving into the new place.

Also, just saying because Alexa has issues with her ankles and knees and does this, Yoga has been wonderful for her. We used to do Yoga together when she was a teenager ad our Yoga teacher said, "do Yoga and the weight just melts off you".
Alexa watches YouTube Yoga classes.

Monkey, you've been through so much.
I am SO FULL of admiration for you and have been from the moment we "met".

You're truly amazing.

Regardless of how our body seems to let us down, we CAN live a beautiful life.
I know for sure after having a broken back (still major issues maintaining this) and other physical injuries that unless we LOVE our body, take care of it to the best of our ability, we can't expect anything better.

Sorry monkey, just got an alarming call, gotta go.

Love EM

[monkey_magic]

Hi Em and all,

I like what you said about still having a beautiful life regardless of how our body let's us down. It's up to the individual to retrain their thinking I believe. The power does comes from within but some days are just hard and painful. I'll keep yoga and a podiatrist in mind. At the moment I'm sick and have been resting everything for a few days now.

It was pouring for my 6 days in Cairns but we still went to Fitzroy island by boat, swam, ate out, went to the casino, walked around, did some shopping. It was a great experience and has sparked the want for lots more travel.

Ive now lost 13kgs...only 4kgs loss to go before I win my weight loss competition. I've got until 1/7/21 but you can weigh out 2 weeks early. Even though I've been pretty inactive I've still been able to lose by eating less and changing the foods that I eat. It's all in the head for me. I made up my mind, knew what I had to do and am doing it. Putting money on the line really kicked my butt into action. I love seeing the scale drop. It's a challenge that I've had to do for my health.

Em you're truely amazing yourself. You have a lot of courage.

Hope you are all doing ok and hanging in there and having some great moments in your lives! We've got this.