Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[monkey_magic]

All I can do is breath

Life throwing me boulders

Too many to catch

I guess I should just throw them back

Too much crap

[monkey_magic]

It does not do to dwell on dreams & forget to live. It takes a great deal of courage to stand up to ur enemies, but a great deal more to stand up to your friends. Happiness can b found even in the darkest of times, when only one remembers to turn on the light.

[monkey_magic]

Croix plz look after yourself first. My life is a lot for anyone to read or take on...I really don't want to hinder anyone else and I'm OK for you to walk if its too much. I want to be real & raw & feel guilty if I hinder ppl...I understand u choose to do this but also understand I'm OK with you needing to withdraw whenever. I don't want u to but I understand... I maybe processing some stuff again....or I could write in a diary. I just don't want to give anyone too much to take on bcas I know wat its like to be a mess and take on too much.

[meercat]

I have been on same meds continually for many years for bipolar..highs medium and lows. in early august i curled up and hibernated for 3 weeks. A few days before that i was enjoying paddling my kayak, usual daily walk, eating healthy etc. My husband took me to his doctor, mine was not available for 9 days. I staggered into see him holding the wall. By then i had lost 7 kilos. A blood test showed i was toxic. Dr took me off meds altogether. there was enough in my system to keep me going for a week but i was taking them carefully. So i went from my old dosage to nothing then on to a new lower dosage. After 2 months I am now living again, on a lower dose, thinking clearly, laughing, not talking fast, seeing clearly. I know there will be other roller coaster rides, its just part of my life. Im still learning ways to manage. Since iv been posting on BB i have had the courage to tell my husband and my neighbour.

meercat

[meercat]

Just posted a note today. I mentioned the "t" word. I hope i did not scare you. In august when i first felt tired i was on a low/no salt diet which i have found out is not a good idea with my meds. It needs salt in diet to work effectively. I was under a lot of stress. This affected how my body absorbed the meds. It was "stockpiling" them and so it was not working effectively. It wasnt scarey, just annoying cause i could not do anything. Now im evening out im gradually catching up with the washing! Side effects are always thirsty and i have to watch my diet. I appreciate your thoughts re not taking anything at all..Iv been on same meds for years in different doses, no long term problems and it helps me have a good life.

meercat

meercat

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

I have no words of wisdom or advice but I just wanted to swing by to say hi and to say that "I hear you." I know you're hurting...

To do what I do best (i.e. quote people back at themselves):

All I can do is breathe

I think that's your own wisdom speaking there. One moment at a time. Breathe...

kind thoughts,

Pepper xoxo

[Croix]

Dear MM~

You have no idea how much I appreciate your looking out for me. I do pace myself sometimes, but always come back.

Your road is a bumpier one than mine now, and has been on and off for a long while. I look at your life, and others, and think I get it pretty easy most of the time.

Maybe keeping a diary might be a good thing to try, please remember to write down the good with the bad, that way when you go back and look at it you get the balance. In some ways it's harder to write the good bits, the bad sort of flows - or that's me anyway.

If good was as easy to write I'd fill the Happy Memories thread no trouble.

Croix

[monkey_magic]

Croix my head is full of the dark and bad stuff ATM, I knew I was going to relive it & happy I am because I want to move past it. I don't like not remembering. I want to remember...I want the process....

I think about you, you're life, wat uve written here anyway. PTSD recovery is a journey hey....I'm on a mission to be cured!

There will always be good with the bad, sometimes more good than bad. When u first wrote to me & made me see that there was another side to life, I loved that, remember the chocolate sandwiches! I felt guilty deleting everything but I felt guilty burdening ppl as well. I know these forums r an outlet but I wanted to scrap it. Sorry 😞

[monkey_magic]

But didn't want to scap all the things u n everyone else wrote....I was triggered when I decided to do that.

[monkey_magic]

Croix you've looked out for me 🙂