Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[monkey_magic]

Aaaagggggrrrr....

I took a pill. Scared of non- compliance. Scared if they spring a blood test on me to check my levels & they're not right they can throw me in hospital for the next 5 months. That would be my worst nightmare. So, I'm not taking charge, I'm doing what other people expect or want.

[Croix]

Dear MM~

Not quite, you are assessing the situation balancing things and then deciding on a course of action. You are not blindly complying nor are you unreasonably resisting.

We all make decisions of this nature every day, it's called consequences. If I try to pick up a heavy log for the fire I know I'll end up in bed- or at least swallowing more painkillers - so I don't, I get someone to move it later when they are around.

You are doing ok MM, trying to avoid worry and being put in hospital is sensible

Croix

[TheIronGiant]

Hey there,

I think Croix has put it really well here. You are doing what works for you at this moment after balancing the options and consequences. It’s a really sucky situation and I really hope you understand that it’s not your fault that this is happening.

I personally believe that treatment orders are really rubbish because they put the person in a situation of fear and prosecution. Instead, doctors should be focusing on why you don’t want to take your meds and then discussing other options with you. I absolutely had to stop mine because I was living life in a lethargic bubble, and I had very little support from doctors.

I believe you will get through this and I hope that more people will listen to you as you continue to advocate for yourself.

Take care,

Bridget

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

I think that Croix and Bridget articulated it beautifully.

I agree that your decision to take your meds reflects your circumstances rather than a personality trait or "character flaw." Like, it's a circumstantial decision as opposed to a decision that defines you.

You are still you. Still feisty and strong even with the meds in your system at the moment 😉

Kind thoughts,

Pepper xoxo

[monkey_magic]

Thankyou all for writing to me, I've taken it all on board during this struggle of finding a way or trying to make a way of getting out of the order. I agree with what's been said, so thankyou.

TherlonGiant I understand that lethargic bubble & I absolutely would love to b off the meds as well. Absolutely agree with doctors should discuss other options with you. It's still early days so I'll see what I can do or find out what will be done to me. I think you understand the system too 😞

Peppermintbach it can feel as though the meds have taken over your system. They are strong. Its a struggle and I'm sucking it up 😞

On the positive I can be an example of what can happen & what does happen to people I.e not been given a choice about what goes into your body through a mental health system. It happens to so many people in mental health hospitals & some end up on orders. When I was in there everyone was a zombie or asleep. Not much fun to be apart if or see. I understand there are other views and opinions out there & I'm simply expressing mine.

[Guest_128]

Hey Monk,

Yeah I'm watching you,

If I wasn't on my meds, I wouldn't be here, simple.

Absolutely it took time for me to get the right formula,and I just tweaked it 8weeks a go.

If you don't put fuel in a car it just won't preform, If you put the wrong fuel in, it's not good at all.

When it was so bad I did not care what they put in my fuel tank,

Now I know,

Its my life support.

Dory

[monkey_magic]

Hey Dory,

I'm really happy to hear that 🙂

There will def b two sides to this & I'm totally open to people expressing both success & unsuccessful attempts with meds. Some love em some hate em. They work for some & not for others. Some ppl willingly take them others have no choice.... 😞 I don't mean to offend.

[monkey_magic]

Oh great, now I just read about someone going through medication toxicity. This just gets scarier ( for me).

[Croix]

Dear MM~

You are a sensible person and know quite well that Dr Google and the internet as a whole is a terrible place to read about medical matters.

Once, just as an exercise I looked up some symptoms and ended up having everything from radiation sickness to malaria, all of which was pure rubbish - well I hope so 🙂

With the amount of exercise you do you are in a pretty good position to tolerate most things anyway, and if something really bad starts to happen you will know what to do.

Croix

[monkey_magic]

I see your point,

Croix I'm getting so much crap from ppl. Very busy where I am. I still feel broken. Being a victim of crap & abuse is a hard pill to swallow. Being around danger isn't easy. Being off balance, being around violence. I've survived. I'm sick of crap today, of ppl bringing down my mood. I know, within I have to be mega strong. This world can throw so much at u in a short space. So much to deal with, much ignorance by ppl. Today I felt like driving away from everything, everyone.

Always bouncing back. I know u know I know what to do. Thanks again for supporting me.