Sad musings

[Peppermintbach]

Hi everyone,

I'm not sure what to say other than I'm just on edge, cranky and sad at the same time. I'm aware of helplines, doctors, mental health plans, mindfulness, CBT, smiling mind app, distractions, doing things we love, etc, etc. I feel as though I've hit a wall...

I know that I want to make some sort of change or changes but I'm unsure of the nature of this change. A general feeling of unease. When you're deeply unhappy but you're not even 100% sure why.

Seriously, this all probably seems kind of vague and I'm not sure what I'm hoping to achieve here, and I know that no one has the answer except for me (whatever that is...throws hands up in frustration).

All I can say is I think life is difficult and often painful. It's the daily, in-between moments that I find the hardest. Sometimes I wonder if brief moments of reprieve is as good as it gets.

Pepper

[Peppermintbach]

Hi lovely people,

Quirky- thank you, you're very considerate and caring 🙂 I have had a couple of rough days. I need to drag my sorry self out of bed soon (sighs) lol. I hope you're doing okay in your travels.

How is your super cool shop btw?

Butterfly- popping in to check on me is perfect words enough 😉 Thank you for being here. Missed you too and I hope you're resting up after the accident. 🐻 Hugs...

Sez- sending love and caring thoughts your way. You're in my heart...

Anyone reading- I hope you get through the day if you're hurting- one step at a time.

But if you're having a good day today, good for you- I'm happy for you.

Love,

Pepper xoxo

[startingnew]

You deserve the best support i can give peps and it makes me upset that i can hardly think straight.

Imissed you and you stuck by me and it means alot to me. I can hardly offer more than my hugs and love.it just doesnt seem enough

BW xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxooxoxooxo

[startingnew]

Oh my sweet peps

Iwant to be here. You deserve so.much more than me popping in. I just dont know what to say. Youve stuck by me for a while now and i want to do the same to you too.

It makes me upset that i cant think of anything to say but i can offerr my love and hugs it just doesnt seem enough. And thats the same for you too Sez. ❤❤❤

[Peppermintbach]

Dearest White Butterfly Wings,

Your posts made me smile 🙂

Thank you...

Your presence here and the fact that you visited and left me such heartfelt words is more than enough.

It's not about the "perfect" words- no one has them anyway- it's about reaching out and saying "I care" and you always do that beautifully.

Just keep being you; that's more than enough 😉

Love,

Pepper ⛈ xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[startingnew]

Love you peps

❤❤❤❤

[Peppermintbach]

Glad my ⛈ didn't scare you away 😉

Love you too,

Pepper xoxo 💞

[startingnew]

Not a chance peps ❤❤❤

I will always walk in the rain with you

[Peppermintbach]

Morning,

Doing my usual morning routine of dreading to crawl out of bed...

You know those moments where you wake up and just want to escape your own life?

Yeah, I'm having one of those moments where I just want to stay in bed and pull my blanket over my head. Even if I can't sleep, my blanket fortress shields me from the world. I can literally hide from the world that way. Don't have to deal with anything.

Sidenote: I have been listening to Monsters (Brother Sundance) and Mermaid (Skott). They both have an ethereal quality about them; I feel like I'm in another world when I listen to those songs. An otherworldly cocoon of music and emotions.

Anyway...

Rubs eyes tiredly...must get up soon...take care everyone.

Butterfly (startingnew)- sounds perfect. Bring an umbrella 😉

Love,

Pepper xoxo

[Peppermintbach]

Musings on love and life:

Is this crazy?

I am looking for someone- something- more remarkable.

A feeling above all else; I'll know it when I feel it.

Yes, I have loved before but have never been "in love" if that makes sense.

I'm not talking about romance- have never been big on romance even know others love it (each to their own)- but I mean a deeper understanding and connection. That can be hard to find...

My ex and I didn't understand each other very well, moreover, we wanted different things in life. A disaster in the making; disconnection rather then connection. All the more frustrating when he "thought" that he understood me when he couldn't be as far off the mark as possible. We were on completely different wavelengths- that was the heart of the problem. I have been told that I'm hard to understand. Duh? Are we not all complex people (?)

Plus there's also a part of me that is a little wild and untamed.

I'm a free spirit who never had the balls to be free.

- Cheryl Strayed

Love,

Pepper xoxo

[startingnew]

Peps ❤❤❤