Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi Jules292

So sorry things are tough for you at the moment. This seems to be a fairly common experience for people who struggle with their mental health - a feeling of worthlessness. I certainly feel it most acutely on my "down days". And yes, I think a lot of the time how we allow others to treat us is a reflection of how we feel we deserve to be treated.

Maybe something small you could do for yourself is to think about how to respond to criticism from others in a way that's non-confrontational but allows you to feel a bit better about yourself. Perhaps it would sound like "that's ok, I like my watch" or some such. Or perhaps it's not something you say out loud at all, but something you say to yourself in your head, like "isn't it great that I have the self-awareness to not say things that are hurtful to others. I like that about me". Anyway, just some ideas to think about.

You're certainly not worthless. We all deserve to be happy, I just think some of us have to work harder to get there x

My kindest thoughts, and happy to chat if you'd like to. Katy

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

** and thanks so much Andrew and Paul 🙂 I'm very appreciative of this space, and it's nice to be able to chat with others. Hope you're both doing ok xx

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

You are still grieving lass, so you will have days like yesterday where the tears just flow. That is perfectly natural & to be expected and accepted for what it is. I wish I could have been there in real life to give you a shoulder to cry on. If you want to talk or you want someone to just sit quietly with you I am here.

Gentlest of hugs

Paws

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone.

Sorry for not being on here. Been busy & stressed today, & only got home earlier.

I hope everyone's alright. Congrats on becoming a Valued Contributor Katy, well deserved.

Love & hugs all around,

Tayla

[Junior412]

Hi Tayla,

Sorry to hear of your battles. To be honest I’ve hardly been here myself as I am being snowed under with work, and with that when I’m home alone I struggle with unwinding after the craziness of work.

I hope you’re doing ok, I’m always here if you want a listening ear. Remember, we’re here for each other. No matter how little you feel you contribute to myself and others here, I check in each day to see how my friends are travelling. You’re all always in my thoughts. How’s the search for work? How’s your issues with your GP? I hope you find a replacement GP if this one is causing problems.

I travel around regional Victoria a fair bit, so you never know, we may bump into each other down the track!

If you want the full song to the one I quoted, it’s called “You’ll Never Walk Alone.” I’ve listened to this song for many years and the lyrics ring clear to me whenever I feel down. Please feel free to share this song whenever you are having a bad day.

Hugs, love and kisses,

Simon

[Guest_4643]

Hi all.

Had a bad day again today. I'm sorry that I haven't been here. I feel like I've failed the forums, but I care about everyone & try to support everybody as much as I can. Just going through a lot & feel so alone.

Love & hugs to everyone though.

Simon, the search for work & GP stuff is terrible like I expected. Who cares anymore, I don't. I give up. I'll give the song a listen, thanks. Hugs & kisses back.

Tayla

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy,

I have only now found your threat. You have had too much loss dear lady!

I just wrote quite a long reply, but I had a computer glitch and accidentally deleted it! So all I am going to say now is that you and others (Hi Paws!) have been so kind to me on my thread, that I hope I can offer whatever support I can offer back to you in return.

You sound like such a lovely person, be gentle with yourself and expect the bad days, especially when things are still so raw. I will talk more another time... I just wanted to let you know I am sorry, and do care, and will come by if that's OK to see how you are...

Sam of course sends furry hugs, and I send mine. Again, be gentle with yourself. Hugs dear lady.

[Junior412]

Hi Tayla,

Don’t give up girl. You have failed absolutely no one here. We are all here for you, to support in any way we can. I can’t emphasise how much hearing from you lifts my day. Is there any way that you can find another GP, can your psych help? We all have bad days, believe me I have had that many of late I’ve lost count. Hearing from special people like you and others here have given me hope.

Who cares - I do and so do Katy, Andrew and others. I’m certainly always here. Are you alone - the answer is no. While you stay with us here you’ll never be alone.

I travel around regional Victoria a lot, when I feel low I get in the car and drive to wherever I feel like. I love taking photography in remote areas and enjoying the countryside. Very mind clearing.

Hang in there Tayls, (if I can call you that), my door is certainly open.

Hugs, kisses and love

Simon

[Hanna3]

Hi again Katy,

I wanted to ask what courses are you doing for your social work degree this year? Your final year should be the most interesting subjects! Do let me know, either here or on my thread - I'd love to know what the subjects are that you're doing, I'm genuinely interested having done social anthropology - they're not unrelated subjects!

Hope you have an OK day today. Lots of hugs from me and Sam of course! xx

[Hanna3]

Oops sorry for the typo - thread, not threat!