Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[JackFrost]

You're most welcome. I hope you can find someone that will work well for you.

If you have teaken the week off, I'd clear your mental space. Give all academia a wide berth. Practice mindfulness, transcendental meditation, etc. Stuff that will help you physically, mentally, and emotionally. Then you can use them whenever you want down the line.

I'll stop suggesting things now, I feel like I am counselling you when I continue to forget to do these things myself haha.

Have a wonderful week

[Hanna3]

Hi Jack Frost(&hi Katy)

Out of interest what subject area did you study/supervise in?

I did social anthropology and philosophy.

Cheers!

Hope you're going OK Katy 🥀

[JackFrost]

Hi Hanna,

Psychology and neuroscience. I supervise in neuroscience.

I studied philosophy in undergrad. I miss it. I still have lots of my old philosophy books because it sparks so much thought!

[Hanna3]

My GP here studied neuroscience before doing medicine. She said she was studying how ICE affects the brain to cause violent behaviour. It must be interesting!

Do you have a thread Jack Frost as I feel like I'm hijacking Katy's thread! 🙂

Hi Katy how are things? 🥀

[ecomama]

Hey Katy

How are things going?

Thinking of you
Love EMxxxx

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi all

JackFrost - it’s been nice just to have a breather (from rowing through sky hoops with that teaspoon lol). And yes, always easier to give advice, right? 🙂 How are you getting along?

Hi Hanna - have popped by your thread

EM - nice to see you here. I’m a bit up and down. The thought of failing uni makes me feel like a failure. If I quit, I definitely fail though. If I stick with it, maybe I won’t. As humiliating and stressful as it is to do so. Either way I’m really close to the end at this point! I just don’t know how it will end 🙂

How are you? I hope you’ve found some time for your garden. I spent a half day repotting some plants out the back and am looking forward to having more time to get my hands dirty. Also, noticed my passion fruit vine has its first flower of the season. It’s only a young vine so it’s pretty exciting 🙂

Hugs, Katy

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

I googled the new kangaroo paw... oh wow!!!!... I love it... what a gorgeous colour... & how wonderful that they weren't even trying to get that colour, but just cross breeding to improve the plant for home gardeners... I am a bit jealous though that it will be available to WA gardeners quite some time before we can get it here.

Getting a plant for your desk for when you go back sounds very wise... something you can focus on to help you settle yourself whenever you feel wobbly.

Yes Woofa does like kisses... fair warning though... once you start to show him attention he does not approve of you stopping for any reason before he is ready to stop... however many hours that takes... I'm sure the lovely Miss Storm is much more lady like & doesn't demand ongoing attention from unsuspecting visitors.

Have you been managing to get out & about much with Stormy or have the regular cold fronts been too limiting?

Stay warm

Big hugs

Paws

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy

I googled that kangaroo paw and it looks gorgeous!

Dud you read the book Quiet and if so, how did you find it? Have you read anything by Stephanie Dowrick! Forgiveness and Other Acts of Love was good I read it years ago. I've met her several times and she's lovely.

Hope you've had a reasonable day today. I'm soooo hoping we'll get out of lockdown in another week. Friends of mine up the coast got out of lockdown a few days ago and are suddenly back in lockdown tonight - you can't plan anything these days!

🙂🐥💗🍧🍬🍵🏕️🏣🎾

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Four weeks til my thesis is due and it’s a mess! Like me lol. I do wish I’d had a less stressful year and was able to give it the attention it deserved. Oh well.

Im also conscious that the two year anniversary of losing Z is approaching. I wish I wasn’t conscious of it. But there it is. Hopefully I’ll manage ok.

All that aside, the day is lovely, and I’m going to garden a bit and walk my lovely girl.

Ive not had time to read anything, Hanna. But I’m making a lovely long list for when I’m done 🙂

Can’t wait!!!

Katy 🌻

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

How is Stormy today after her back legs went on strike yesterday?... I hope she is lying in the sun beside you getting some vitamin d as you potter in your garden...

ok... 'fess up... what new plants have you got???? I still have a few of my new plants still to pot up... but I am tempted to get more for inside...

Of course you are aware of the upcoming anniversary... just a gentle thought lass... rather than trying not to be so conscious of it... use this time to think of something special you can do to celebrate the love you will always have for her... it doesn't have to be anything big... just something that has meaning for you...

Hugs

Paws