Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy,

You have two choices dear lady. One is, you give up now because you feel you can't cope. This is fine if you are going to feel OK about that decision in the future, or will it be another reason to beat yourself up and think you're not good enough? It's a legitimate decision, but you have to be able to live with it in the future.

The second option is to go to your prac with your sleeves rolled up, prepared to do the very best you can do, knowing your degree hangs on it. If you fail, OK well you know you tried your best. If you succeed, hooray.

Over to you. Both are legitimate decisions. Only you can decide which to choose, but I know which one I would pick.

Either way, you know we all have your back here.

Hugs.

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Thanks so much Paws, Hanna, Grandy for your words of encouragement and support.

I imagine this unusual weather isn’t helpful, as I’m a sun baby, and sunshine is rare at the moment. I spent the day in bed again. I feel tired and worn from the stress of everything.

I don’t want to quit though. I’m hopeful I will make it through the door Monday. I will draw on all your advice, and try get organised on the weekend.

Appreciative hugs, Katy

[Guest_1643]

Hi Katy,

just my humble opinion but i thnk its so understandable and normal to feel scard and over it befor assessments and pracs. there is so much pressure and comparision to other students, and it can be hard to fight yur way through.

uni is important but u are too, take care or urself and give urself piles of well deservd care because it is a hard time finishing assignments. u can do it and are doing it , every day, in a really wonderfl way.

I think many of us are in awe of ur success and stamnia through ur honours. the process itself is rough and challenging

[ecomama]

Hey Katy

You are POWERFUL.

You are STRONG.

You're UNIQUE, AMAZING and LOVED!

You've got this!

If you need some FUN exercises in prep for prac then Amy Cuddy's POWER POSES is a good one to search for.

Select an outfit for Monday and Tuesday lol.

You know what to do. You are allowed to ASK questions. This is simply a learning experience that you deserve to have.

When you're scared or wobbly, know we are your CHEER SQUAD!

I found a rock an Indigenous lady gave me 20y ago today. It's worn in places from her family rubbing their thumb into the rock.
When I held it in a stressful time many years ago, I felt the power from all the people before me who'd held that rock too.
I KNEW that this too shall pass... and it did.

Whether your rock is real or imaginary, it's there for you to focus on.

Love you lots!
EMxxxx

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

“I choose not to be charmed by anxieties and instead turn to be attracted by opportunity”. - Sonya Matejko

Trying to get myself into a good mental space ready for tomorrow. Thanks for your kindness and encouragement, women. Maybe my rock can be my lovely cheer squad, and if I start to talk nasty to myself, I can wonder instead “what would EM, sleepy, Hanna and Paws say to me right now?”.

Well our wettest July was in 2006, and we’ve smashed that. I think the sun is supposed to finally come out next week lol. Fingers crossed!

Hugs to all you wonderful, amazing people - Katy

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy

This is just brief because I have to compose a letter.

Focus on the fact that you can do this. You seem to focus on the anxiety which I get, but remember that every student going to a new prac feels some excitement and some anxiety because it's a new situation.

Focus on the fact you're there to help people who need your help. Focus on their need not your anxiety.

And decide you're going to actually maybe really enjoy it!

Shoulders back and head up OK?

All the best! 😊

[ecomama]

Hey Katy

Omg I chuckled when I read what you wrote!

SO MUCH POWER IN THAT THOUGHT.... Focus on what our strong woman collective would say to you!

You have SO GOT THIS.

Imagine anxiety as a cuddly "Where the Wild Things Are" monster... it's UP and AWAKE.

Hey little anxiety monster!
I see you're up and awake.

THANKYOU for trying to keep me safe.

I AM SAFE.
I have my own self AND my Women's Collective, so I hear you but hey little darling, I'm doing this thing ANY WAY.

Doesn't matter what you say.
I deserve this.
I've earnt this.

Yeah I KNOW I'm not perfect but NO ONE IS lol so just quieten down, it's okay. I've got this.

you need to go to sleep now. I'm grateful for you. I appreciate you. Sleep now.

Brene Brown learnt and shared this on her podcast! Not exactly the same, I IMPROVISED! hahaha.

More POWER TO YOU dear Katy!

Love and MANY Blessings!
EMxxxx

[Hanna3]

Just popping by early Monday morning to wish you all the best today Katy. You can do this! Good luck and thinking of you. Hugs! 😊👍🌷🍀🌻

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Aww Thankyou for thinking of me!

Well I made it in but the manager isn’t in today so I’ve been sent home. Guess I have to be brave again tomorrow. Ok, instead of feeling blah (which I do), I’m going to call it a successful practice run.

Now… what to do today… hmmm….

[Hanna3]

I guess at least tomorrow the new place will be familiar Katy! Well done for getting there and hope you found something nice to do today.

Best wishes for tomorrow! 😊👍🌼🍀🌷