Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy, wave to everyone,

I hope the headache has eased for you...

That's so wonderful hearing you like going to the GROW group... especially that you feel you fit with the other people... you never know given time you might find a friend or two there...

I think in your place I would also prefer to speak to my regular vet when it comes to making decisions about treatment options for an elderly pet... there are so many more options for keeping elderly animals comfortable these days... having advice from someone who knows puss & his needs would help set your mind at rest about future options...

Em is brave making omelettes for her pets... if I give Woofa eggs... lookout... silent but deadly rear end wind that could clear an entire town results...

Another day in bed for me... Woofa decided late arvo to insist I get up... he won...

Hugs to you & pats to the furs

Paws

[Guest_1643]

Hi all,
Really inereting to know about the Grow group, I considered going as well, do they use the 12-steps?

I am doing some free counselling with an organisation Called CASA. I'm finding them pretty good so far, it's amazing to find good resources.

I hope your cat is okay until your preferred VET comes back, I also feel funny seeing new ppl who I don't "know" fully when making big decisions....

sorry it's so miserable, hope u get some warm days. I know u live in a warm climate, does that mean there are some sunny days, even this time of year? Victoria is pretty gross atm 😞 So dark and morbid-feeling. We all need a bit of warmth, and hot chocolate is good, but doesn't cut it when it's this cold!!

pats to ur cats and dog!

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Day 3 in bed. Making a mess of prac. Haven’t walked the dog. No clean dishes. Crying cos I miss my ex. Always do when things are shit. And then getting annoyed at myself cos he was a jerk. Life’s complicated…

Yes, GROW is similar to AA I believe, so probably twelve steps. I don’t really “get it” yet but that’s ok. They keep telling me my job is to just rock up again for now. My psych told me that a group is only as good as the people in it, which makes sense. They also do social stuff and you’re encouraged to attend, so that’s cool too.

Can totally relate to what you’ve said about people/places/things, EM. I’m glad exposure therapy has and is working for you. You deserve to take back space x

Hows the hip and lower back, Paws? Woofa was very patient to let you rest that long.

Sleepy, you’re incredibly resourceful. Good on you for being so proactive in help seeking. Sorry your weather is yuk. We usually have mild weather here but it’s just all rain and storms which is weird and unpleasant. I miss the sun!

Families are so complicated, Hanna. I wish your brothers were there for you too. I hope you’ll be able to stay in touch with us here on your phone or maybe at the library. You’ll be missed otherwise!

Hugs from a sad sore sooky non-sunbeam (nirvana reference there - Hanna might get it) x

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

Here is a big gentle squishy comforting hug

How are you today lass?... have you managed to get out of bed, even if it is only as far as the couch?... the weather out your way can't be helping...

Lass I wonder if the tears about your ex are really more tears for the life you thought you had... having someone to share your life with who cares for you... with a future lifetime together... it was so cruelly destroyed lass... I'm not surprised you think about it when you are low... you are trying to battle everything on your own without a supportive person in r/l beside you on a day to day basis...

Is it facing doing the prac that has overwhelmed you?... or do you think it more a combination of things?... I'm wondering perhaps if you acknowledge with your current mh you are too unwell to attend the prac this week it might help you get out of bed... if you had the flu you would accept that you were too unwell to attend... both are illnesses & both are valid reasons...

I managed to get up about noon today.. though I've been on the couch since... motivation is zilch...I've been mindlessly playing minesweeper... thankfully my hip has eased back to normal pain levels...

Be gentle with yourself

more hugs

Paws

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy and everyone

Sorry I'm so limited in being here I'm going to see if the computer is overheating but my phone charger died today and that cost another forty dollars today to buy a new one! I'm going to ask at the computer repair shop what they think/might charge.

Katy in what way did you mess up your prac? Are you sure or is this just your opinion?

Sorry youre down. And yep I definitely get the Nirvana reference! Hugs to everyone 🤗🐕🐾🎠🦚🎶🔆🐳

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi there

Thanks for the cheer and support. Stayed up late playing minesweeper so I'm tired today. It's very addictive, Paws. Wet and cold here again.

Missed GROW last night, but so be it. I also feel ok about missing my ex after reading a post that Grandy wrote. He was good and bad, and I miss the good, and that's ok.

Hope everyone is having an ok day. Hugs xo

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

Whoops sorry for mentioning minesweeper... it is easy for the hours to vanish when playing it...

That's lovely hearing that you found a post by Grandy so helpful... she is a gentle & wise with such a kind heart...

Do you think you are getting more & stronger cold fronts than usual?... We get our weather from the west... but from memory most cold fronts in winter usually came up from the south into SA with just a few from WA... maybe my memory is failing me...

Some nice news... my great niece has hair that can grow long past her rump in little over 18 months... yesterday she had it cut short & donated her cut hair to the group who make wigs for cancer patients ... she saw a poster at the hairdressers when she was about 8 & asked her mum if she could donate... this is now the second time she has done it...

How is Stormy coping with the wet cold weather... does she still want her walks? How is her ear doing???

Hugs

Paws

[Guest_1643]

Hi Katy, it can be painful to miss ppl but also maybe there is something to knowing there was some good there. i understand about painful memories, it can be really upsetting to face.
Hope ur doing okay and finding some time to breathe and enjoy. I saw Bri Lee's book in the bookshop yesterday, she's doing really well now. On Beauty was hard for me because it was triggering, but that doesn't mean she isn't great 🙂

I hope everyone raeading is doing okay, staying warm, eating well and feeling cosy x

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Quite right you are about the weather, Paws. Most unusual. 40mm of rain here today, but at least it didn’t flood, unlike the big city. Stormy and I are still in bed. Surprisingly no-one has nagged yet for dinner, despite it being after 5pm. How are you faring today? You’ve been low lately also.

I wonder how my plants are coping. I planted my hakea laurena in the ground perhaps a week ago, as it had outgrown its pot. It had 3 flowers on it. They’re so unusual and really delightful. I hope it’s going ok.

That’s really wonderful about your great niece donating her hair, Paws. How very special.

Stormy’s ear is quite flat now, and catty is a little perkier too. So all’s stable for now, thank goodness. Now we rest and heal.

Apologies for not understanding why you didn’t like Bri’s book, Sleepy. Makes perfect sense now. I too have to work at my self esteem, and get triggered by a lot of things so I should have been more sensitive.

Hugs and thanks as ever for being here. Lots of tears today but I guess they serve a purpose. Katy

[Guest_1643]

hi katy just wanted to say hi and check in, i love unusual plants!! I hope they are growing beautifully and give you a lot of joy. hope everyone is keeping warm and well

sorry u had some tears but good to let it out. I hope u felt a bit better afterwards. Thanks for ur compliments abut being resourceful, means so much!!

Thanks for being here and sending warm vibes to everyone on ur thread