Not coping after disclosure

[startingnew]

Please help me. Im really struggling.

last night i disclosed something that ive kept with me for 2 years now. Im already struggling with ptsd anxiety and depression but the event that i disclosed also comes under ptsd.

I rang a hotline and the first time in 2 years ive spoken about it and im so embarrassed and ashamed. I hate myself and blame myelf for it. And im terriffied! !

[demonblaster]

Hi our dear SLD and y/our beautiful friends.

Sweety seriously don't worry about catching up or feel obliged to post at mine. I know we're friends and you care and appreciate always you popping in with chocolate I mean love so all good huns 🤗

Wow it would be a job and satisfying getting a row done on blanky good on you, must be nice seeing it grow and the lovely White and rainbow colours I'd think would have a calming affect.

Good they've found a possible cause Starts, have faith darling they've come a long way in medicine and what a relief it'll be finally getting some answers to work on healing. And another light with your teeth too, you don't muck around do ya love. Cop it every angle so long awaited relief aheads a good to look forward to.

Poor darling passing out. True they see all things in the nature of that work and majority are in it because they care and wouldn't at all be judging you. They sounded very compassionate and aware how hard you're doing it.

Happy about headspace too lovey it seems you're finally getting some very overdue breaks in your life.

Ok sweety girl as always I'll be keeping an 👁 & 👂🏻on you well not on you exactly 😆 yip must choof to bed soon clearly 🤗😚

Love sweety. Oh good on you with walking and exercise bike. I must jump that too. 🐣🐧

[Ggrand]

Hello Little butterfly 🦋,

I agree with Deebi, please don’t worry yourself about

posting on our threads, we know you’re not doing so great, so please sweety concerntrate on you, you’re very important to us all and we all want nothing more then you healing....I also haven’t been posting that much either, it’s just so hard when we’re down and words are a jumbled up mess in my/our heads....

Its getting close for you to have your teeth extractions. You will do okay sweetheart, I know I’ll be holding your hands when your there and im certain all your other wonderful friends will be as well. Just close your eyes and visualise us all being there comforting you... I wish I could take your place for you...

It’s good they found something around your pancreas, I mean not good no..I’m sorry they have, but now they can investigate further and treat you for it...

Your a trooper ( Deebi)..and you’ll get through this sweety, and get stronger then before..we are all here with you pulling you up little butterfly,

Hey how about I stay at yours tonight and eat some of that yummy chocolate that my chocolate 🍫 Magic retreeved out of Deebi’s dressing gown pocket 😁😂..shhhh I won’t tell if you don’t.😁..

love and hugs 💚🤗 little butterfly 🦋.

Grandy...

[Peppermintbach]

Darling Butterfly Wings (waves to all),

You sound really tired and drained...I can hear the fatigue. Here, please let me clear a spot next to me, and you can flutter over and rest your little wings...I’ll drape a beautiful blanket over your wings and let you rest.

I like how you’re taking things day by day. Considering you have so many stressors, I think that approach is very wise...

Sighs, it’s never the one thing, is it? Your teeth, financial stress, emotional roller coaster, etc...no wonder you’re feeling so overwhelmed.

I’m just going to sit quietly by your side and offer gentle comfort and encouragement. I hope you feel a very caring presence around you...

Squishy hugs, love and affection...

”Dusk till dawn”

Pepper xoxox

[startingnew]

Hi guys
thank you for your wonderful posts as always xox




SL- im always reading even if I dont post sl, I still keep up with my friends' news even if I dont post. Im usually under the 'helpful' button reading along.


Im a quarter of the way through the baby blanket now, I put my rainbow one on hold so I could finish the other blanket. My rainbow one takes a lot longer than the baby blanket, many people have a few projects going at the same time though. They will get done sooner or later..


They arent sure of anything yet, but I do see my gp tomorrow arvo so ill hear back about all the test results plus find out if she can help with something for my teeth until I at least get this one pulled and healed. I have some of my older strong pain releif from the last bout of tooth infections so have been using those the today and they help for a few hrs then it comes back full force.


Mmm, was very embarrassing passing out, I hope not to do that again but they were good about it, im sure im not the first nor the last to have that happen. My bruising is healing too, its getting lighter and its starting to itch like crazy!


Yes thankfully this psych and I clicked, or at least I hope itll continue that way, im suppose to have one 2 days after my tooth is taken out but im not sure how that will go and its school holidays too. Day 3 in and havent had a break yet and pops now back from his holidays too so its pretty tough atm.

Thank you

[startingnew]

Little angel- I agree, its hard to post or think of words when we are so jumbled but I am reading eve n if im not posting as much.
I know 😞 that extraction is coming. Fast. I am terrified of it but I need to as well. Something has to be done, I cant stand weeks on end with migraines when the toothache flares up as it has this past week. Its only a week away now..
I speak to my gp tomorrow, so will find out all the test results and what the next steps are etc so will let you guys know how I go tomorrow after ive seen her.

Thank you, I do love your sleepovers, dont tell DB about those choccies though!

Peps- my online sis- you can come and have a sleepover too, I would love that. I am tired indeed. Its school holidays here too and so far ive got the kids 5 out of the 7 days this week, next weeks a little different though at least. Day by day is really all I can do at the moment. Its too much otherwise.
No 😞 its never just the one thing. ijust have to keep working through them though The financial side of things have had me in tears so many times im starting to loose count. I need to work, but I cant work anymore than what I already am, ot enough hrs in the day it seems..
And peps... I always have your very caring presence around me xox
Thank you
Dusk till dawn


Sending you all many may hugs, much love, butterfly wishes and a few choccies too.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[Peppermintbach]

Hello Little Wings (waves to all),

Of course I’m keeping you company 🙂 Always with you in spirit...

I think your sisters are very lucky to have you although it must be so exhausting for you to be taking care of them 5 days each week during the holidays. That’s a big responsibility and also very time consuming...sighs...

I really hope you manage to squeeze in some moments to yourself despite having to take care of them. Maybe if you put a movie on at home as one of your activities, you can pull out your crochet and have a bit of time to yourself...just an idea...

All the best at your GP appointment today. We will be there in spirit with you, gently encouraging you and cheering you on. Plus offering comfort if you feel scared or nervous...

Love, affection and gentle but squishy big sis hugs...

”Dusk till dawn”

Pepper xoxox

[demonblaster]

Hi SLD 🤗 and everyone ☺
Figure you need that extra hug lovey but sshh we don't want our darlings here getting jealous.

Was thinking honey to ease your financial situation I wonder if you might be able to sell your blankys online or.. Yes the bigger ones Would take up more time that you don't have a lot of and quite undersandably give you less time for others, The babies could move along at their pace, Which would eventually get it all happening, You have so much patience which is an admirable quality darling so it'll all work out I know cause you're our little trooper girl ☺🤗

Bbl huns. All best today sweetheart. 🤗

Bit tricky atm our little 😻😸 puddy tats aren't talking as much 😷for some reason so I only got half the story...something about choccy...🤔...hymmm...wonder if they're being bribed 🎣 into silence.
I did..I did see little fishy bones in their little dishy
😚❤💓👀👂🏻🤝

[startingnew]

hi guys

i am feeling super super nervous about my appt. its in an hr and ive got no idea what to expect, my fingers are crossed that there is some sort of news....

im doing lots and lots of breathing atm......

[demonblaster]

Sweetheart by now you may have some results

Picture us there with you darling cause we are virtually 🤝

Honey better to know so they can work from there than all this time not knowing.

No matter what the outcome darling we'll be with you to get you through. Try as hard as it is to not let the imagination run too wild.

Good girl with breathing. Grandy was told at hospital to on your other hand use your index finger and on the breath in go up your fingers edge and down on exhale.

You're strong honey, you've proven that time and time again.

Look around at things in the room. Maybe say hi to someone and chat

Best sweety 🤗❤🕊🍃

[Birdy77]

Dear SN,

Watch your thoughts flying around, zooming past your head ... observe them ... try to name them, e.g. anxiety, doom, panic, fear .... And stay centred within yourself as you watch your thoughts.

Breathe in, observe your thoughts, breathe out, watch them fly around.

You are more than your thoughts.

You watch them. You name them.

You are not them.

You are the still and quiet observer of your thoughts.

You are the calm beneath your thoughts.

You are the love and joy and gentleness and wisdom beneath your thoughts.

You are getting through this, calmly and gently and with compassion for yourself.

🌻birdy