Hey Pet - thanks for the tip. I'm really starting to consider meds more seriously as you'll see below. Just...overwhelmed at the moment. Your advice to basically let others help is good - hard to swallow, but I think it's getting to that point where I'm realising I can't do this alone.
Hey Joelle - sorry about the lack of response. Back from Uluru today and had no reception/internet there. I was on such a high while there. I think being away from home and everything that's happened here in terms of the break-up, family, psychologist (not that it's a bad thing, just more stress), work, tutoring, blargh, yeah - being away helped.
But as soon as I got to the airport at Uluru, the high feeling just evaporated and, like you said, a long rapid and very harsh drop. And also like you said, I felt like I was picking myself off the floor - I felt like I got some semblance of identity (I really like travelling and being out of the city) - but then life decided to sit on me again. And now I'm just banging my head thinking, "How could I be so silly to think it'd let me get up? This keeps happening!"
Feeling very overwhelmed like a bulldozer has just run over me a few times for good measure. Then picked me up and dropped me back down, just for fun.
On the bright side, I'm a bit clearer on who I am: I like being out under the stars and feeling like there's a massive world out there to explore. I also like having a home to go to and a stable relationship which I can count on, even if I can't count on anything else. Just a shame that neither are in my grasp right now, haha.
Sorry to hear about your own troubles too. How was your psychologist session? What's been pushing you each way and every way?
James
