Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Wilma1]

Oh Shelly, I'm so sorry I haven't been hear for a few days. I know sometimes the phone call is just too hard to make. I also know reading and reading posts helps. Just knowing someone cares, is here. We're all right here with you. Our knees bent just like you. We understand, we care. We have tears with/for you. Hang on!! It will get better, I promise. Sometimes just a little shade of grey is enough to make that one more step, but if you can't do that,lean on us, we won't leave you behind. Thinking of you. Wishful

[Starwolf]

Hey dear Shelle-Belle...I've come to sit a while with you at the bottom of this well.

Nothing wrong with resting when you are tired. It is not about giving up, just regaining strength, letting the emptiness slowly fill with renewed hope. It will happen, in its own time.

Let me reassure you...you are so much more than a figment of your imagination. Your presence around the forums is a force that can be perceived by all of us. How can you believe you don't exist ?

No one can represent the power of gentleness as well as you do. You are a beacon in the darkness for so many. I hope this sadness soon lifts so that you can see what is so obvious to all of us. There again, nothing much can be seen when you're sitting in darkness. It doesn't mean there's nothing to be seen...

Perhaps you have lost sight of how many have been comforted by your kind words and gentle hugs. So I came to remind you...lest you forget.

[Doolhof]

Hi Shelley,

I have some dynamite for that wall of yours! I've just blown my trench sky high! I have been lying in it for a couple of days with the all the misery I could muster as company. The rain that was dumping on me from the black clouds overhead mixed with my tears and I darn near drowned myself!

Okay, so what can be done about the horrid depression you are in right now Shelley? You might need a bit more than dynamite maybe.

Let's have a look at one thing you can do right now: yell and scream and let the frustration out. Guess that is two or three things really, depending on how you look at it.

I'm not wanting to make fun of the dark place you are in Shelley, I know how horrid it can be.

My Dr. wants me to go to hospital for a few days, I wanted to stay home, be in the garden and have managed to break out the sewing machine as well.

It might not seem at all possible, but this day will not last forever. Hang in there Shelley, there is hope, it is just playing hide and seek with you right now.

I'm sending you huge hugs. Wish I could send you flowers, chocolates, organise a massage for you, a spa treatment, a basket full of cute kittens or puppies if they are more your thing.

Right now I can send you my best wishes and sincere thoughts like other wonderful people here.

Thinking of you, from Dools

[Guest_1055]

I have read and re read all the words you all wrote, Croix, Taurus, hopeful, Star, Kazz, Mrs D they are not sinking in much, they are far away. But I know that you saw me. I am not unnoticeable, you saw me. So thank you. I am holding on to some words whispered to me. " All will be well"

[Kazzl]

Hi hun - you are more noticed, appreciated and cared about here than you could know. I agree with Mrs Dools - there is always hope, always - and you have given others hope here too, don't forget that. I'll never forget your kindness to me when I was in a bad place.

More hugs for you lovely.

Kaz

xxx

[Bat_Lady]

I know how you feel because I was there too. It will get better. Give yourself time to recover. You are not a failure, just going through a bad time. Remember there are people who love you and are sending good wishes. Stay strong.

[MarkJT]

Shell, the first time i have posted on this thread. Just wanted to pop in and say that you most certainly are noticeable. Life can throw incredible curve balls at us at times that is for sure.

I know you have done this with others, but i am another one who you can lean on, chat to, ask questions, have a good old whinge to....what ever you need, I am many others are always here for you.

Mark

[Guest_1055]

Dear Kaz, Bat lady, Mark,

All I can say is thank you for your kindness.

[white knight]

hi Shelley Anne

Its been a long time since we've chatted. We posters should never underestimate the influence we have on readers. Like Kaz mentioned, your kindness is unforgettable.

Its that magic quality that makes you unique.

Take heart wonderful lady of kindness. You'll be ok.

Tony WK

[monkey_magic]

I'll second that...I felt your kindness and softness and sensitivity ouze through the screen and it made a difference to my life at the time....give yourself lots of hugs from us xox