Dear RunGirl~
It's a horrible feeling waiting on serious test results, I find waiting to be just about the worst thing and often wish my life away and that the intervening time had just disappeared. Not just for test results but anything non-trivial.
The worst was unexpectedly uncovering a spot on my lung in an MRI and because for some reason they could not biopsy it I had to wait to see if it grew. A most unpleasant time. Of course I convinced myself it was cancer, after all I'd been a heavy smoker, hadn't I?
So as you would expect I'm a few things I do when waiting. They all revolve around distraction so my mind stops thinking about the upcoming matter and goes elsewhere.
Exercise in the form of gentle walking is good. This gets me out of the house where the thoughts breed and into a different area where there are new sights, perhaps people to greet, and if at night the chance of spotting possums, rabbits or other animals (I live in the country).
Another is going to the movies, or watching movies at home, also reading, though this does take more concentration.
The smartphone app Smiling Mind is very good at taking the mind out of the worry circle.
As for the possible forthcoming diagnoses it would be silly to down the path of imagining any of them until you have more information.
So what are you going to do? Resume writing a short story? Talk with someone? Do something completely new? Write heaps on bb? Adopt some of my ideas?
Croix
