Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.
So sorry that you are in so much distress, Sapphire. Has anything happened in the facility that made you upset and wanting to leave ?
I am worried about you. Have you checked the BeyondNow suicide safety plan (top left of this page in the Get support section) ? It is good to read that you want to get better. It is not Life that those of us who think/have thought about bowing out want to end ...but the pain. And there is a different (and not so permanent) approach to that.
Starwolf, I have not yet read it but will do now. I think it was all just because i could not sleep and had very little sleep. I also attended a stress management meeting which i think triggered me and after that i made a plan and acted on that plan. I am here now and have had a good nights sleep thanks to hypnosis. I only woke up once throughout the night but did not feel terrified like usual and went back to sleep and slept right through to 6 am.
I have an appointment today with the manager to see if they will let me stay in this place or if they decide im too high risk and make me leave. If they kick me out im not sure what will happen. I am also supposed to have a home visit from a crisis psychologist today but not sure whats happening with that. Also have my psychologist that visits this facility.
I will let you all know what happens. If i stay or if i go. Im not really sure what is the best decision for me at this stage.
I'm relieved to know that you are safe and in a better frame of mind. No wonder sleep deprivation has been used as a form of torture...it does can play havoc with your brain !
Please let us know how you go and what has been decided. If it is decided that you cannot stay where you are now, it means they will want you to be in a place better suited to your present needs. It is good that this will be discussed with you and that your psychologist can also be involved. It may not always feel like it but it sounds like you are in good hands.
Startingnew, im sorry to read you were in an accident. I hopenyou werent too badly injured.
Starwolf, they discharged me from the facility and am now at home. I will be attending intensive day therapies daily and will have crisis care checking on me in the evenings. Im hoping it helps butmy anxiety has been through the roof today.
it sounds like they are really trying to help you. thats really good, i hope you utilise these as well. dont be afraid to speak up about whats bothering you, thats what they are there for.
im sort ok, concussion, whiplash, a few brusies here and there but mostly psychological.
how are you going today? i bet your hubby and dog are happy to see you home..
Car crashes are scary. Ive been in a few now and have wrecked my confidence in driving.
Its nice to be home but im a bit worried about SH & suicidal thoughts. I dont know how to stop them.
Started the intensive day therapy today. I dont see the point in it or how it would even help me. I feel like i dobt belong there. I dobt belong anywhere.
just gotta keep the headaches and flashabacks away at the moment. thanks for asking xoxox
crashes are very scary Sapphire. i know your worried about what you might do but just try to take it day by day. utilise the resources that are avalaliable to you ok
