i need help please

[Jackson1994]

is there anybody there

i need some help i cant cope with this anymore please help

- jackson

[Doolhof]

Hi Jackson,

Your comments made me remember something my Dad apparently said when we were kids.

He wanted to know why we were not toilet trained by 6 weeks!

[Jackson1994]

Haha I love it! Only 3 more weeks

[Doolhof]

HI Jackson,

Come summer and you will have W on the board with you out in the surf! Well, maybe in a year or two!

Each day will bring you new experiences and emotions!

All the best from Dools

[Jackson1994]

Thanks Dools, he is doing so well, changing every day. Last Friday on my day off the sun was shining, I thought we would go for a walk just the two of us because H wasn’t feeling so great. By the time I got everything ready it was pouring outside, so all three of us went for a drive instead, we could of had an inside day pajama day but my thinking was that H has stay at home pj days most days (nothing wrong with that btw that’s life with a newborn) so let’s all get out for a bit. So that was really nice.

Everyone from work got to meet him today after we had an appointment nearby. We had a bit of a scare with him the last few days but eventuated to nothing much at all, in reflection it was probably more for our peace of mind to get confirmation that everything was ok.

yeah we will have him out on his little surfboard I made, in a few years time no doubt.

[CMF]

Hey J,

Great to hear you're all able to be out and about. Brings back so many memories. What a joyous time in your lives. Soon it will be W's 1st Christmas!

Cmf x

[Jackson1994]

Cheers CMF

It’s interesting how people suddenly become experts in child welfare the minute you have a baby, like that we should all be home 24/7 and not leave to get any fresh air or exercise, anything like that. I just laughed. I mean, I’m sure the groceries will just grow legs and walk themselves from the supermarket to our house?? Just like my paycheck will?

I’ve learnt that those kind of comments are more of a reflection of the person saying it and what’s going on their life.

Morning off today

[Ggrand]

Hello Jackson..

I would love to congratulate you on your beautiful little baby boy...I’m so happy for you and H....

Jackson...Yes that does happen..people suddenly becoming child experts..hon..just take your time and enjoy every moment you can with your son...I think parenthood is inbuilt into all our souls and heart....You’ll do great...

I think learning about and caring for him in your own time and your own way is a blessing to be held close to your heart and you’ll both do a fantastic job...You are both going to be amazing parents...you have so much love inside you too give to your wonderful little son....Not that much longer and you will be called the greatest name ever....daddy...

Take care of each other and again congratulations....

Love and caring hugs..🤗💖.

Grandy..

[Jackson1994]

Thank you so much Grandy, thats lovely and means a lot. It’s definitely a journey 💛

I just love my seeing my mum with him, my step dad too of course but I see something in Mum I haven’t seen in over 4 years

[Jackson1994]

This might sound like we are repeating the same thing over and over with me, but I saw my Dad today.

I’ve gotten to a point where I realise I don’t have to like what he did or forget it just but acknowledge it happened and accept that it was done. What does holding on to those feelings of pain and frustration actually do? All it does is continue to upset me and flood my head with anxiety

12 months ago or maybe even 6 months ago I wasn’t in a head space to quite understand that, I don’t think.

Anyway, was good to catch up with him and I’m happy to keep it at that between us for now. Seems well, better than last time I saw him.

Will continue to keep my distance and slowly start to let him in, on my terms.

On a side now - how good is the weather? I hope this continues through the weekend, got the more consistent reliable members of my family coming to visit..*cough step dad cough*

[Jackson1994]

Also on the way home I picked up a $50 “vintage” arm chair off marketplace with the hope of restoring it for H and W, but H seems to know what looks good and is good at all that arty stuff rather i just get things functioning, like sanding things back etc so it might end up her project a little bit, which is cool too