I'm really trying to feel better about myself

[Music_Freak]

I don't know where to start with this, there's so much in my head right now...

I've got nothing, but my cat...no job, no friends, far from a family priority etc. etc.

My mum died 10 years ago on 26.2 and I still miss her so badly, she was the only person I had who was in my corner. Everyone else (family, friends that currently aren't talking to me) say I play the victim and am all "woe is me"

My sister's said I look like a silverback gorilla and other such things. She's a bully who gets away with it all, because she's the favourite and "normal" (kids, married, no mental illness - although I have doubts about that last one). My dad's called me fat and said that "You're bent like your mother" (she was bipolar). He lives with me and getting him to do anything is such a battle, he doesn't feel like paying the rent, so it's left to me, goes to work when he feels like it, helps my sister with her house but won't with me etc. etc. etc....I could go on and on with them!!

I have a GP and a psychologist that I should go back to (sessions are free and they're within walking distance), but I wonder if it's worth it when my psychologist said me running an instagram account for a celebrity is me living in fantasy land

I won't write any more, because I can't see anyone replying. I've got nothing and nobody and just want to forget...

[Music_Freak]

Got the applied psychology mark...

Another P1...could I be any more average?!

Got a credit last time.

[Music_Freak]

I think it's safe to assume that the random HD was indeed a total fluke.

[Birdy77]

Hello MF,

Most people get either a Pass or a Fail.

It is only outstanding submissions that receive credits, distinctions and HDs.

You only needs to pass to get the qualification.

There is nothing wrong with a Pass.

Whack the colourful wax in your fauxhawk ... that's not average! That's awesome.

[Music_Freak]

Thanks Birdy...you always talk sense 🙂

It's a shame the tears have come...I'm not sure why exactly, but they're here.

I know getting P1's is an OK mark, so I'm not sure whether it's an internal expectation or what, but hell, I'm beginning to loathe them!!

I would be happy with credits, and that's what I told my psychologist, but they always seem just out of reach...

Maybe I'm just stressed and missing my mum is making everything worse...I can't help but think about how on earth I'm going to get through my 2 exams 😞

I think I'll try and have a rest day tomorrow...

[Music_Freak]

Well...I basically had a second rest day today...couldn't get my brain into doing uni work, plus I woke up with headache, so it was just a blah day.

Hopefully I can get motivated for uni work tomorrow, I'll likely have to work through the weekend since I have two things that need doing...

Is it too early to start dreaming about holidays, when I have 2 exams in November?!

Mind you, I've got a “holidays to do list” already

[smallwolf]

MF,

On getting credits etc... Firstly, doing assignments at Uni is much harder than at high school. Also, despite the use of cross-marking, some lecturers are harder than other when it come to marking. Some might take off marks due to incorrect referencing, others not. Or not having enough references. Some lecturers might be like the grammar police, correcting every sentence. So here is a little cheat sheet to help you...

• correct referencing
• make sure you have the right number of references per word count (cannot remember if it is 4 or 8 per 1000 words)
• dont be afraid to criticize something stated by an author if you disagree. But state your case. Dont just regurgitate what an author says as fact.
• be aware of the word limit
• add an original thought
• make sure you proofread. Or get someone to read it. Or use a tool like grammarly (spelling?) in Word.
• your introduction says what you are going to say. the body says it, and the conclusion says "this is what I have shown". make sure they are all aligned.
• talk through your ideas with your lecturer if you can?
• look at the marking criteria sheet and make sure you cover all the bases

These are little things I have picked up along the way. I hope they might work for you.

Tim

[Music_Freak]

Thanks Tim...I will keep those in mind, and probably print them. I think I have been marked by a tough lecturer for the politics subject, he seems more picky than the co-ordinator.

I realised that enrolments for next semester open on the 11th and part of my befuddled brain is wondering if it's worth it. A few people have said they're are slightly easier subjects...for them, anyway...

Oh well, have to get back to work...or should I say start at 10:15am. Whoopsie.

[Music_Freak]

Today is politics essay starting day...DREADING it.

But I made myself sleep in so tiredness wouldn't be as much of an issue, but having trouble getting going this morning...it's already 10:30...I haven't even had breakfast. Procrastinating or not?!

[Guest_820]

Hi MF

No, You're Not Procrastinating.

You're in an "Emotional Overload"....

Your Brain is "Shutting Down" Slowly...

It's Time for "Personal Space" from whatever is Causing Your Stressors...

Do Something that's Enjoyable + You'll come home Refreshed rmReady to Tackle your Issues From a Different Vantage Point!

All the best.

Regards.

Chikkenleggs (CL)

[Music_Freak]

Yeah, what you're saying sounds about right...I had holidays (a teachers break) at uni, that I had to do assessments through, so it wasn't a holiday at all. Plus I rarely have days away from uni work.

I just feel like a corpse.

I tried to sleep in this morning and only dozed until 10...I've already got a long to do list for the end of year holidays...