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I'm really trying to feel better about myself
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I don't know where to start with this, there's so much in my head right now...
I've got nothing, but my cat...no job, no friends, far from a family priority etc. etc.
My mum died 10 years ago on 26.2 and I still miss her so badly, she was the only person I had who was in my corner. Everyone else (family, friends that currently aren't talking to me) say I play the victim and am all "woe is me"
My sister's said I look like a silverback gorilla and other such things. She's a bully who gets away with it all, because she's the favourite and "normal" (kids, married, no mental illness - although I have doubts about that last one). My dad's called me fat and said that "You're bent like your mother" (she was bipolar). He lives with me and getting him to do anything is such a battle, he doesn't feel like paying the rent, so it's left to me, goes to work when he feels like it, helps my sister with her house but won't with me etc. etc. etc....I could go on and on with them!!
I have a GP and a psychologist that I should go back to (sessions are free and they're within walking distance), but I wonder if it's worth it when my psychologist said me running an instagram account for a celebrity is me living in fantasy land
I won't write any more, because I can't see anyone replying. I've got nothing and nobody and just want to forget...
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Hi Narelle,
How are things going for you at the moment? Are you ticking off little activities each day?
I love vegetarian fritattas. I am also very fond of zuchhini slice, have you tried that one? The best recipe I have tried is on Taste.
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I'm OK, I guess, I went for a drive earlier this morning (my first since my near miss a while back) and I was stressing out! I still suck at parking 😞
I haven't tried zucchini slice, I'll have to look it up 🙂
I'm not ticking things of as such, just trying to get a routine of sorts happening and maintained. It's going to be 35 today so not sure I'll get a lot done, but I did get up early. I have some shopping to do because I have a $20 Bunnings card from doing surveys, so maybe that'll happen this week
Buddy and me are both stretched out under my ceiling fan 🙂
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Hey Narelle,
I used to do surveys while on unpaid parental leave. It's a great way to get a little spending money if you have the time.
Routines are great. I am working on the same thing. My first goal has been trying to get to sleepband wake up at regular times. I am getting there slowly.
I am hopeless at parking, I just look for easy spots and walk further. Win, win for exercise 🙂 If it is something you want to improve on though, maybe you can add extra driving tuition to a wish list.
The zucchini slice is so yummy it doesn't taste healthy at all.
Hot day! My house is keeping nice and cool which is handy. We bought a trampoline bed for puppy Storm today so she can sleep cooler.
It's getting nearer to concert time!
Thinking of you xx
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Sorry I've so crap with visiting/posting here. I'm not ignoring anyone or anything, just distracted, I guess. Anyway....
I FINALLY HAVE AN APPOINTMENT WITH MY PSYCHOLOGIST!!!
I just made one for the 8th - what a relief - it's finally done!
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WOO HOO!
Fantastic, you made the appointment, good for you. It was tough but you did it.
Proud of you, hugs, xx
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Well done!
I am really happy for you xx
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Well, I haven't been in this thread for a while again - whoopsie
I'm still a bit distracted with concert trip prep (no it wouldn't take a “normal” person quite so much energy etc.) I'm super excited about the whole thing, but the depression after will be BAD
I started doing yoga and some weights a week or so ago, to give myself something else to focus on, but its hard for me to do being so unfit etc.
I've got my appointment Thursday, not really looking forward to it, but it'll be over soon enough
I haven't been driving much at all, I might make it my goal for next year, since I've failed so much to date
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Hi,
Oh dear you do give yourself hard time. You are making the effort and as you know every baby step helps.
Good luck tomorrow.
Hugs, xx
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Hi Narelle,
How are you going? Are you buddy okay?
Hugs, xx
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I'm doing OK, except I missed my psychologist and doctors appointments today. Slept right through them. Whoops. Will have to get to the doctor asap because I need a script
I've been busy exercising and getting organised for the concerts in January. I'm talking to online friends a bit, but waiting for them to disappear when the concerts are over
