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[velvetfaerie]

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

[velvetfaerie]

Just tired of trying my guts out Dory. In all I do. Man thing doesn't hear me when I express myself. I feel so alone.

[Guest_128]

Well your not alone with that one my friend!

How bout you go something for you.

Go get a massage yourself,

Stay at a friends,

go somewhere completely different to the norm,

Go to a reptile park,

If you come stay with me I could take you to find so many bones on the most beautiful beach in the world.🤗🤗🤗

[velvetfaerie]

I went to the gym and gardened. In the sun. Talked to All the girls, my mum and man thing......Decided I'm going off the pill to experiment with my moods.

Also the other day I compared reported maximum blood serum levels of various synthetic progesterones used in various hormonal birth controls including the morning after pill, normal pill, implant, ring, injection and hormonal IUD. What I discovered was logical and explains a lot. I also have tried ALL THESE THINGS.. except IUD. Had a bad time with all of them.

i will ask for the IUD if they refuse to tie off my Fallopians.... or I'll ask my colleague to spey me 😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😂😂😂

thank you Dory. You're great. I'd love to come bone collecting with you. At least those bones don't make babies 😂😂🤣🤣🤣😂😂

I understand how you feel too. We probably have different things triggering us that's all.

☠️☠️💀💀☠️☠️💀💀 bones.

[Guest_128]

Wow going to stop taking pill, scary move I must say, very interesting all the same.

I look at myself having monthly things,as a major bipolar trigger, ovulation awesome major high,lead up to start day,😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱 that was me.

would love to check out the research,It interests me a lot.

I recon just do take whatever works,even if it's dog poo.

Now, We fish on this beach, but I often go walk about searching for treasures,it is very renowned for Aboriginal? Also because it is a massive beach there is heaps of stuff washed up near the water.The sand dunes go for miles,you never know what you will find. Also fantastic huge mega sand dunes to slide down.

Now that should wake ya man thing up.

Dory

[CMF]

"I always feel in everything in my life I'm just treading water and I'm so tired I just want to sink and drown. I've had enough. I really have. With everything. Responsibilities etc. I want to give up. Too tired. So tired of battling things alone."

I hear you.

x

[velvetfaerie]

Hey CMF. Thank you. You understand don't you? Im sorry. I hope I didn't drag you down............

Well, Im on day 2 no contraceptive pill. I feel much more grounded. Bit blue but not out of my head with anxiety and dangerous depression mood swings. The physical pms symptoms are just starting but that's ok. To be expected 😊

Lets hope this experiment will explain a lot of my behaviour the last few months. I really could not go on with those extreme mood swings, idealisation and SH. Need alone the poor people close to me. I have their complete love and support and honesty.

I ate sooooo much today 😂😂😂😂... pms? Too many skittles. Mmmmmmmm skittles 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤

v.

[velvetfaerie]

Hey Dory!!!

omg I thought I replied to you. Yes scary move but proving in the early days a good one.

My notes are interesting. Serum levels of progesterone in my pill was higher than morning after pill, even though different synthetic progesterone, but could be significant values.

Time will tell. And the 🍌 stays away, or wears a rain coat. ☔️

😂

[Guest_3712]

Hi velvet,

Sorry I did reply earlier, unreliable internet I'm afraid- laptop crashed only just back.

So hate to see you so down about this - totally get it. One good thing about menopause is your'e down with all of this- so long as you survive the menopause that is - real fun

I guess your'e worried they wont tie your tubes due to age mostly, and it a hard situation. Maybe get some back up from your docs may help. Probably wouldn't get colleagues to spey you

Just know I'm thinking of you

Stressless

[velvetfaerie]

Hey SL,

Is ok. Thanks for your words. I am thinking of you as well.

Today I have a headache and i am fuzzy in the head from the sudden hormone drop off from the pill cessation. I feel better mood wise though. Just a bit of blue PMS. Not the extremes.

I hope they will consider tubal ligation. I am 38. Second to that an IUD.

Ah my colleagues are cool. Vets. We have the drugs and the know how 🙂 (I joke I joke).

Take it easy lady. Always love hearing from you.

V.

XX

[Guest_1055]

I haven't got many words, but I hope you feel better soon Velv......

Shell