how do i get started im so confused

[willdo]

not sure how , were to get involved with the forums. please help

[willdo]

Happy birthday for yesterday. hope you had a fun day.

Just spent an hour at services NSW. not a great achievement as i asked debi (wife) to come and took some anxiety medication.

I helped Debi with cleaning a bit (her day off) other than that not much planned .

again happy birthday and enjoy the coffee with Mum.

William

[Aaronsis]

Hi Will

Thank you so much for the birthday wishes, I was just at work yesterday and then had dinner and some cake with the kids, donated blood this morning and had mum over too, so yeah I have had a lovely weekend so far. I was very lucky yesterday and was spoiled with two bunches of stunning flowers and an awesome lunch.

That is great that you have been helping your wife get some of the house work done, I am sure she is really appreciative of the help. Also it is something that you can do together and spend some time even if it is doing jobs....

The tennis is on TV this afternoon, do you like watching sport or anything like that on TV? I am really looking forward to the Australian Open too. I will be volunteering there for BB which is exciting.

Chat soon Will

Huge hugs as always xx

Sarah xx

[willdo]

hi.

What will you be volunteering to do at the open ? very jealous.

loved all sports (or used to). anything going on TV or even on the radio if i'm on the road. Like everything else i lost interest in the last 18 months or so. i hardly turn the TV on. Hopefully the passion will come back with everything else.

William

[Aaronsis]

Hey Will

The Australian Open is a really great event and with the crowds and lots of people some people might feel overwhelmed or just need a place to get some comfort, to even have a chat about their mental health. Some might just stop past and say hi and some might want to buy merch or make a donation. I will be volunteering at the Beyond Blue room over Aust. Day weekend. I feel very lucky to be able to give back and hopefully make a difference.

TV isn't such a big deal but sometimes it is nice just to be able to switch off from the noise in your head and watch something low key or not so serious or some sport, just to have some time "away" from the thoughts.

My kids want to go to the movies so I might go to see a film tonight, however the blood donation kind of has made me feel pretty tired today..weird.

Hugs

Sarah

[willdo]

Hi,

hope you are well and got over your blood donation tiredness.

As i have not much to do i have been obsessed with looking up Doctor google, reading about medication and side affects. it does make me feel worse and more Anxious.

i don't know how to stop , the more i read the anxious i get. please help

william

[Aaronsis]

Hey Will

I am so sorry it has taken me awhile to get back to you, I was hanging out with the kids yesterday so was offline. I am still somewhat tired from the blood donation, I really had no idea that it was going to take that much energy out of me, all good though and I have just booked my next appointment so it is something I want to keep doing.

Dr Google, yes well the trap with that is it is great if you are looking up something specific, like a receipe or the likes..you get the information that you need,but if you are putting in general questions you will get a whole heap of varied responses that it not necessarily true for you. The more you read the more you end up feeling like the end is near and you have all sorts of things wrong and that is just not helpful and not true. I know you are really anxious about the thought of starting a new medication, but if you can, leave the worrying to the doctors as they know best what they are prescribing and what goes with what and what is best to try for YOU. I know you are going through a phase of figuring this out but Google is really not going to give you the answer, you will only know once you try.

How are you feeling today? I am really hopeful for another wonderful day for you Will and hope you can tell that anxiety that you wont be searching Google and that it can "BE QUIET" today that you have other things to do.

Happy Monday to you Will and chat soon

Huge hugs and some more hugs

Sarah xxx

[willdo]

Hi,

i picked up my new medication (additional as mentioned ) , the cost of the script was $95 (not covered by PBS). don't know what to think its a lot of money on top of all the other medications. I am not working at the moment so its very challenging.

i almost did not get it but i did, if it works sobeit. doctor told me around $40 so not sure how he got that amount.

i will talk to him on the 1/2 when i see him to see if its working and or other alternatives.

warm regards

william

[Aaronsis]

Hey Will

That is great that you decided to get the meds, if they help then amazing and who knows what you can expect from your new found state of happiness and peace, how wonderful. I get it though that $95 is very expensive and a conversation is absolutely in order to see if he can help with the cost in some way.

I know it is alot to manage but if it works there really isn't a price that is too much to pay for your peace of mind and so that you can return to the Will of old and get back to doing what is it you love to do, to be happy and to join in your family activities and perhaps even work again.

Have you got anything planned for this afternoon?

Great to chat to you Will and I hope that the new meds work for you I really do, you so deserve some peace and some happiness. All my very best wishes and fingers crossed.

Hugs and love

Sarah

[willdo]

Hi Sarah,

how are you today, hope all is well.

after a great deal of anxiety and what if's i took the additional medication last night. i was having Anxiety attacks after i took them. i'm sure its my mental state not the medication that was causing the the feelings i was experiencing.

Wrestles night as usual (bit more than normal) , got out of bed with depressed mood thinking of the day ahead. the knot in my stomach drives me nuts. thinking of tonight and going to bed already.

Debi works afternoon shift today , so i have to man up and do a bit specially in the kitchen. she just left to the shops i should have gone with her but Anxiety wins again.

I wish i can post positive things , maybe soon ..........

William

[Aaronsis]

Hey William

I am so pleased that you have started the new medication, as you well know it does take some time to get used to it and there probably is that little bit of extra anxiety as you want it to work so badly and what if it doesn't and all those thoughts that go with it. Try to remain positive and tell yourself that you deserve this and the chance to get well and let the meds do what they need to.

I am so sorry you have that knot in your stomach, I know what that is like, I can tell you what I do when it is there but you have to promise not to laugh as it is a bit daggy. I sit and close my eyes, breathe and imagine untying that huge thick rope that is tied in a big messy knot and I take it and slowly visualise that I am taking it apart and I breathe and then I tend to feel better knowing I have untied it and I can throw it away. Sorry if that sounds daggy..lol

So you are on dinner shift tonight? What are you cooking? I am sure the lamb last week was a huge hit so you will have to back it up tonight..lol

Just a thought, have you talked to Debi about ways in which she can perhaps encourage you to come with her and help fight the noise that is anxiety, that it is not the truth and that it is not allowed to win? Perhaps with her words and her supporting you, you might be able to join her in things like going to the shops and even one day the movies.

Hope you are feeling ok this afternoon William.

Huge hugs to you

Sarah xxx