Feeling desperate to make this stop

[Lilly99]

Hi there, this is my first post which is really scary. Anyway I am not good feeling really depressed and anxious . I have tried everything psychiatrists, psychologists. Mental health nurses. Medication , I even spent 4 weeks in mental hospital to have tms which obviously didn’t work . Anyway feeling like life isn’t worth living . I feel like I have had enough of this battle called life . No matter what I try nothing works . I couldn’t be more of a joke and a waste of space really what’s the point I am never going it get better . Do people ever truly get better?

[Lilly99]

Hi everyone ,

Thank you Mary for explaining about your meditation and taking time out to post it to me . I hope I didn’t put you out. I will give it a go . I hope you are feeling better. Take good care of yourself .

I can’t talk about the psychologist. Feeling way to emotional about it . Anyway her next appointment is November unless there is a cancellation.

Sorry things aren’t good with my family or me they have escalated It’s all so upsetting and hopeless . Sorry I feel so extremely sad.

Sorry if I don’t reply to your posts straight away . I am just not in a good headspace.

lilly

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

Well done for keeping your appointment and it is perfectly fine if you don’t want to talk about the psychology session. It is also okay if you don’t feel like posting again straight away.

I hope you manage to get some relief with meditation as it is definitely worth trying.

Sorry things with your family are not going well. Take good care of yourself xox.

With lots of love YFF Jojo 🌻🤗🕯

[White_Rose]

Hello Lilly

Thanks for your reply. As with all of us, we post when we can so no problems there. I will give you a couple of web addresses on the meditation. These are the places to get more information if you wish. First is the international page, the World Community for Christian Meditation. http.wccm.org The second is the Australian organisation https://wccmaustralia.org.au/ This probably the best for you to look at. It has a good description of meditation.

I am not being pushy here. At least that's not my intention. Meditation has literally been a life saver for me. I know we are all different in what we choose to do. This meditation has been taught to school children in Townsville and the children look forward to taking part. Pretty good endorsement I think.

No need to talk about the psych or anything else if you are not up to it. May I suggest you write it all down even if you never look at it again. It can give you a feeling of release to blurt it out in this safe situation.

I am feeling much better and have less pain I am happy to say. It comes from being tense and my muscles are protesting. However I have a great physio who makes me laugh as well as release my painful bits.

Mary

[Lilly99]

Dear Jojo and Mary ,

Thank you for your posts .

I family are leaning on me . I can’t hold them up. I am crumbling under the pressure . I can’t cope. I can’t keep myself up. I feel like such a failure. I wish I could be stronger for them . But I am not . I have let them down .

Lilly

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

My heart goes out to you. You are doing the very best you can for yourself and for your family. You can’t do any more than that.

Did your son ever get in touch with the Kids Helpline or Headspace? It sounds like he needs extra support at this time so try and persuade him to talk to one of these help lines.

You are not a failure and are one of the strongest people I know so please don’t beat yourself up.

Give the meditation a go to try and reduce your own stress levels. It may take time to get the hang of it, but sounds like it will be well worth the effort.

You are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you can find some peace of mind xox

With lots of love and hugs YFF Jojo 🌻🤗🕯

[Lilly99]

Thank you Jojo,

I am having a really bad night. I have already phoned a help line . Trying to distract myself from my thoughts . I will try mary’s Meditation.

My son won’t call a help line . I feel like I have lost him already .

I am so sick of living and feeling like this every day.

Lilly

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

Sorry you are having such a bad night, but well done for ringing one of the help lines. I hope that helped a bit.

Try and go somewhere quiet and give the meditation a go and continue with the distraction techniques. Also keep practicing the slow deep breathing as that might help too.

I hope your son changes his mind and gets some help for himself as you probably don’t have the answers for him in any case.

Stay safe and strong xox

With love and hugs YFF Jojo 🌻🤗🕯

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

How are you feeling today? Hope things have improved since last night.

What did you get up to on the weekend? I went out for coffee and a walk. We got caught in a shower of rain and had to shelter under a tree! Then the sun came out so it was all good.

Wishing you well xox

With lots of love and hugs YFF Jojo 🌻🤗🕯

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

Good evening hope you are managing a bit better now. I know it’s early days, but did the meditation help you and give you any relief?

Hope you are still able to distract yourself from your negative and distressing thoughts.

The spring wild flowers are starting to come out where I am - whole carpets of colour in the bush. Quite a beautiful sight.

Take good care dear friend xox

With love and hugs YFF Jojo 🌻🤗🕯

[Lilly99]

Hi Jojo,

Thank you for caring. Sorry for everything .

Lilly