Do you think the way l'm living is ok for now?

[Guest_1584]

Hi BB.

l feel like this is another dumb question from rx , but ah well.ln times of uncertainties we might ask some of those right.

We sep' and divorced 5yrs ago , threw life into a spin. Together 19yrs before. l've stayed in the area to be close to my d, 16now, and finally got another house of my own 15mths ago.

l was with someone new nearly 2yrs but it hasn't worked out unfortunately but being long distance 70% of the time, there was lots of days and nights spent at home in our little private bubble world of messaging and skyping .

So now that we've split, l still haven't built any sort of a new life really. Got this hosue because loved the spot and the house itslef and great views and it's only 20mins form my d's town. lhoped l'd like it here , maybe even make a new life. But ldon't really fit in this town and so it's beena lot more time at home, l work at home too.

Nit sure if l'll stay here , but l do love the house and spot and views and in spare time can easily just hang out around the house days on end , basically alone, bt l dunno, it's just and old renovator but just really comfy to hang out in, live.

If l'm working l always try to get out most days, pick up spares or spin over to one of the other towns for a change of scenery , or some lunch, whatever.Or locally up to the shops even , groceries whatever , anything just to get out for awhile.

lately l've sort of developed a bit of a pattern in spare time. love hanging out around the house a day , 2 or 3, but then l make myslef go see some, a drink with my brother, or another mate l know, or up to the main town , see my daughter some days, or beach , go for a hike, or something. No pubbing or night life.

Same with wkends, l try to get out somewhere one day, hang out at home the other.

But that's pretty well life has been since split with gf. Mostly alone , andl enjoy lately just hanging out around this house , maybe way way too much , not sure. music or some reno's or movies , internet. It's just big and roomy and airy , views , and comfy. l often get claustrophobic but never in this house,

Do you think what l'm doing atm is ok , l really worry l'm alone too much or taht l'll slip into hermitizing too much, l dunno.

Any thoughts welcome.

rx.

[Guest_1584]

Heya cm.

Thanks for that.

Oooo, l'm scared to speak l might bring myself more bad luck butttt, soldiering on lets say,

How you doin , l'll drop over , last you not too good and l'm sorry about that , pretty sure it must be kickem while they're down month..

Anyway one bit of other news been talking to this chick , God l wish l could click my fingers and fall for her, she'd be perfect in so many ways it's not funny andddd, really , really , cute too.l must be crazy.

But l just can't say the giro scale is running offa the charts so far, damn it , it should be , girls like her don't come along very often let me tell ya. l have ex block too l know it , it's a bit soon, not that l was even looking right now but damn , someone comes along when they come along and it ain't always best timing right.

Will keep ya posted.

rx

[Guest_1584]

Well , been a weird combo of all sorts last few weeks butl don't really wanna say too much about most of that right now , kinda seems to jinx stuff for me when l do , dunno why. Everypone else in life seems to be able to get away with a little bit of self pat on back,

But l met someone so that's really been nice and helped things a lot , and her too , we;ve both got our hands fulla crap right now so we've been a real God send for each other. but l won't say much and besides , l feel also kinda confused with it because well , ex gf is still in my heart . Anyway not sure if it will amount to anything but it could for sure if l wanted to go with it. All a bit confusing though as l say , bit soon granted , l dunno , er see what happens,

Main thing l wanna talk about , yep l know , 50 big topics in one post , such is the life of rx lately .

my sister. Damn l just dunno what to do with her. She bought a place up in this area 12mths ago , she's only 20 mins away now , when she's up here , she's down the city too still , part time in each. look she's sort of ok , but l'm only use to seeing her every few years and only for a few minutes at the odd family thing mainly , which l rarely go too. l've lived at least 3 hours away from her for 20 yrs . Now she's 20mins over and up here running around all over my own private turf, calling all the time , dropping in , massages . l just mean wtf , it's too much.

l avoid 90% ,hardly ever answer or say l'm busy if she wants to come over, it still harrasses me mentally bc she's relentless, l can't say, don't wanna hurt her feelings, she;s 50s and single and always looking for company, she thinks we're close but l don't even like talking to her tbh, never have, she couldn't even imagine my world or people, especially females, so different from her.

Haaaaaa, it's getting difficult , last thing l need or want right now , ever actually. Another reason l wanna move .

rx

[Guest_1584]

Well , weathers been shocking here today , nice inside with the fire and a few wines though.

my daughter and me were gonna go have lunch with the whales but she had a migraine and the weathers no go .

So just hung out at home , fire and movies and a few wines and talking with new girl. She's in sydney and wants me to come up . l wanna go up too and meet her , she's turning pout rreally something . but alas . l have this gf thing ,. ex that is.

It will never leave though , we'll both be stuck forever , l know that , she knows that. but there's no solution. So it's a bit soon to meet someone new , but new girl and me didn't expect this and the problem is it will alwasy be a bit soon to meet someone new , l know that now.

But there's been some big stiff happening with new girl , and although well , l still have ex gf stuff, that;ll always be there like l say and rea;;u , if ya knew , l'd be crazy not to go meet her or walk away wothout at least finding out if what we've found so far , is real , or not. BEcause if it is real and ; could move ahead , it would change my life. Sorry l can't gop into the why's of that but ot just would. So l'd be crazy not to at least meet her , right , surely. she knows all about ex gf and understands , and she was only divorced 3 yrs ago too herself , so we both have stuff but as we say it's understandable , anyone is gonna have stuff at this age and chances are of they say they haven't they'd be lying anyway.

l wouldn't be able to go up for another week or so at least , so we see if things are still growing if they do maybe l go , if not then , problem solved l guess.

everything else well , working on it. That's all l wanna say about all that.

Hope everyones well/

[Guest_1584]

Ahhh , that was meant to be , big "stuff." , umm. !

Always knew that " i " , was gonna embarrass me one day.

[CMF]

BAHAHAHAHA...hope t goes well if you do decide to meet up 🙂

[Ggrand]

Hello Randomx,

I'm not sure but maybe your sister is lonely and just in need of company..You could talk to her if she is visiting you to much and tell her or set a day a week when it's okay for her to come and see you for a couple of hours.

If you do decide to go to the city and meet your new girl, I hope you get along well and things work out ok for you.

Take care RX big hugs xx🤗.

Grandy..🕊👼

[Guest_1584]

Hiya cm , and thanks for that, me to. how are you doin , hope your ok. new girl yeah , as ya know it can be a bit confusing with ex's and new and hearts and emotional risks, l've gotta admit. Time should sort though l guess, it usually does right.she's got some really big stuff on this week so we've been a bit spacey which has kinda given me a bit of room to think too. But l do know one thing , she's a very unique and special girl and l think if things keep going l'd probably be crazy not to at least see what happens.

heya grandy. thanks fpor dropping in , l know you have enough on your plate right now so that's really nice of you.

oh god yeah , she's always lonely , she's a people person she knows plenty of other people though she'll be right but no way l could handle a few hours a week of her, a year maybe haha, but thanks for the thoughts though , always appreciated.

you take care eh.

rx

[Guest_1584]

not sure if l said this earlier but l did the sums and things to do with moving and what l wanna set up. Well l'm just blown away that's all . The savings and extras coming in would literally change my life as l know it now, and my work load , future , everything.\

l had plans when l moved here to rent out 1 section as storage units and that would bring down and make up for the extra costs and bring in a good little side income forever. But like the rest of the place , indecision has stalled or brought to a halt all ideas and even reno's and so l've been stuck paying it all until l figure out wth l wanna do. But it's been way too much to pay alone without the other stuff and been really killing me. ;'m so relieved now that l've decided to move on .

Anyway , new girl , man l just can not believe this chick. The more l get to know her and the more we talk about ideas and what we want for our lives from here and all minds of crap, or even just talk , about anything and everything. The more l'm just totally blown away , beyond blown away. It's like a mix of her culture and aussieness and somewhere somehow in the middle it comes out into the most incredible combinational mix of thoughs and ideals that we somehow just gel into all over the place it's quite surreal.

And l must admit , l am wondering if this is who S was talking about and that maybe there was something in things she told me after all because so far somehow it all just fits to a T.

But alas , on the downside l feel really sad and very emotional about gf well, ex now, and a bit confused , ok a lot confused.

rx

[Ggrand]

Dearest Randomx..

Big comforting hugs 🤗🤗🤗..It's hard aye? I wish you all the best...

Grandy..

[blondguy]

Hey RX

Really nice to hear the good news mate. I would also be feeling mega confused as well....seriously. Its good though that your thoughts are occupied....Good1

Just meeting someone to talk to can be a wonderful idea. You have a huge heart RX. Life goes by so fast...hesitation dosent help anyone.....it only hinders

I havent been online much as trying to help my daughter with some issues...rent...high expectations..etc

Thankyou for being a part of the Beyond Blue forums RX!

my best always

Paul