Are we kidding ourselves that things really can get better

[Guest_5809]

I have been in this vicious cycle for so long now and nothing gets better. I am battle fatigued. Truely just numb. Single parent to 2 teens with mental health issues and a narcissistic ex ( kids father). I have experienced my ex attempt suicide, my youngest who was 10 yo at the time attempt suicide and my now 14yo attempt suicide 4 times. I live an emotional roller coaster that I vant keep up wth unless I self medicate. I have 2 inpatient admissions in 7 months cause I just can't see any light left. We exist not live. I am totally lost. We have support services in place but nothing changes . I don't know how other people seem to cope and I can't. I don't know what's wrong with my brain. I feel damaged and broken. I don't want pity and I know there are lots doing it harder than I am. I want to know how to survive this or is it possible t survive ths? And please don't advise me to self care. I truely have little or know time to myself to address my own needs as my chidrens needs are high plus I work to pay bills. Sorry to sound grumpy and selfish. I am just lost and feeling hopeless.

Thanks for taking the time to read.

[Guest_5809]

Need to vent

removed all internet gadgets of mr 15 who Sh the other day cause he cannot self regulate with regards to online safety no matter what I put in place to stop him. He has been right thru my room and found it yesterday. I only realised today. He has lied to me and been so deceitful. I am just shattered. I really don't like any of these behaviours that are affecting my and my younger sons mental health. I have had to go buy a safe. For everything and anything to keep from him. What life is this?? EXISTING NOT LIVING

[startingnew]

hugs Dotti

your doing the best thing you can. its hard but you can only do so much.

i really wish the system would help you and your kids more than what they are. it really sounds like you and them need more help, guidance and support

[Guest_5809]

Feel beaten and exhausted

[startingnew]

i know you do sweet

sending lots of hugs xoxoxox

[Guest_128]

Hi Dotti,

I can hear your pain and I do know how you feel,I don't know where you live and don't know what services are available.

You need to have in place what the professionals seriously expect you to do,especially if things are escalating.

With your younger son,he needs constant reassurance and understanding and guidance from his very own professional so he has someone to talk to.

I have done many things,including taking every single item of technology completely out of the house,as I know that Sh is very very addictive and has a huge following on the social media.

I do feel for you and I wish I could say, send your son to such and such a place, but I don't know where that is.

Dory

[Guest_5809]

Thank you for your kind words.

I really wish there was a boot camp in the outback I could take him too. I am lost hurt and plain sad.

[Guest_5809]

Feeling very lost and lonely.

[startingnew]

hugs Dotti

you have us here for you

xoxoxoxox

[Croix]

Dear Dotti~

Startingnew is right, we are here for you.

Did you get a safe? Trying to stop a teenager doing something they want to is almost impossible so if you succeed, even if only for a while, you are doing good. Has he settled down at all?

Croix

[Guest_5809]

Thank you xxx