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Why would anyone want to talk to me if I'm being such a downer?
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I have been struggling with depression for about 18months now and it has gotten progressively worse.
about two years ago I moved away with my partner for work. It takes three flights just to get back to where our family and friends are from so as you can imagine we don't get home much. I had a baby about 10 months ago and with no family support it has been difficult.
I told my GP how I have been feeling and about three months ago he put me on anti depressants. I haven't told any of my family or friends because I am embarrassed. I feel like I'm weak and why would anyone want to talk to me if I'm being such a downer so I always put on a happy fake phone self. Now it's to the point I am avoiding their calls. I don't want to call anyone. I don't do anything or go anywhere, I'm at home all day with a baby and it's an effort to get out of bed (I always attend to all his needs no matter how bad of a day I am having) but I find it hard to even want to do my hair or makeup, clean the house etc. but I also feel like by moving home I am ruining our future because we are here working away for a reason.
all as my partner ever says is it's my fault for not helping myself and I understand if I did things like mothers group and took the baby to the park etc. I would probably feel better but it just feels like such a big task to get myself organised enough to get out the door. Especially when I dread seeing anyone else.
Can anyone else relate or am I just super crazy. 😢
i don't feel like myself at all!! I don't feel normal. I don't feel like I will ever be happy again even if I do move home. Where as six months ago I thought moving home would be great as I would have support and friends and family now I can't see myself happy anywhere. Feel so lost!
P.s- partner works 13days straight and only has every second sunday off and he leaves for work at 5am and doesn't get home until 6pm or 7pm! I feel so alone.
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Hi Tarzi
im sorry that your feeling this way at the moment it is really horible I know exactly how you feel. For starters I know your son loves you your his mum and always will be sometimes dads can be fun but mums are always the parents we turn to for advice and comfort. I'm a bit like star I'm not a parent but I've pretty well been my brothers dad their entire lives and my brothers are a lot younger than me. Your son will never be better off with out you know matter how much it feels that way it's somthing that isn't true no one will ever be able to replace you your his mum. have you ever considered taking your son to some kind of play group on the weekend that way he can make freinds but more importantly you can make freinds with some of the other parents.
I know it's hard when on the outside you seem fine but inside your just dying I'm the same, have you talked to your husband about how you feel at the moment of anyone really? I know it's hard to make time for yourself when you have a young child but please try to just a little becuase you need to lol after yourself, I think maybe you should consider seeing your GP and getting a referral to a phycologist even if you only see them once a month they can still help you. I know you'll get better you have do much to look forward to in your sons life and your own.
thinking of you
Nath
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Sorry i was trying to edit before but theres no function. My phone keeps putting father for everything! I must use the word alot
That should be mother/parent groups
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