Dear Kantok,
If you had a friend come over one morning a week to play with your kid and give you head space to lie in, take a long shower, talk about life in general whilst telling them where the nappies are and that his favourite toy accidentally got washed yesterday and is hanging on the line to dry then life would give you a breather for a sec. My sister in law went through pretty much the same thing and it took a long time for her to realise that trying to be the perfect mother (she's Italian) was killing her.
If your husband "questioned the safety of our son" then maybe he should also be questioning his own emotional intelligence and taking some paternity leave. Parents of a child under 2 are entitled to take up to 6 months. You mentioned your "son is almost 2"....................a small window of opportunity if your husband is serious about his concerns.
I know what you mean about knowing everyone at the gp. But, really, so what ? Next you'll be saying you can't shop for groceries, can't fill gas at the petrol station, can't return a DVD, can't get the letters out of the mail box.........it's pretty much the same thing. But it's all anxiety. And, let's face it, no one is that concerned who is at the gp, putting petrol in the car, returning "Fifty Shades of Grey" in a brown paper bag or how much mail you get - these are all things that YOU are concerned about so it's a bit of projection when you attribute the same angst to others. Face to face contact is not face to face combat. Might feel like that but it's just your post natal depression talking.
You're not hurting your family by experiencing these stresses. These are great times for learning some coping mechanisms cos rearing a child can really test you and your husband. Just tell your partner you feel like an "IKEA mum" at the moment and can he help put you back together with some understanding and less judgement ? And think of you as Sweedish...........
Adios, David.
