Someone to talk too

Chris D · ‎23-11-2013

I need to talk to someone. I need encouragement. Please help me.

Chris D · ‎06-12-2013

Thankyou Jo,

Means alot to me to read those kind, supporting words of encouragement from you and everyone else. I've noticed that i seem to be getting the most responses from people and most views. Mayb i should stop with my posts because not fair on others. I'm just thinking of myself which isn't me. I hate myself for doing that.

Everyone please support other people give them the support they need please. They need the views and posts from you all. I don't deserve anymore posts or views from anyone i have been given enough posts and views by you all.

Give the attention to people who need it the most please. I don't deserve it. I'm a burden on everyone even myself. I don't deserve the attention.

Chris

geoff · ‎07-12-2013

dear Chris, I know how you feel and what I am going to say is only a thought, because I wouldn't in the world want to upset you, so please just think about it and then get back to us.

OK, I often say that we do know that we may or may not get on with our GP or psych in the first session, however, there are times when we should try and stay with them for a few sessions, so that they can begin to understand what you are going through.

I say this because you are really depressed, although there are signs that the communication between yourself and us is improving, because you can talk to us more freely, and the same should also apply to with these doctors and psych's. Geoff.

mum · ‎07-12-2013

hi chris, well if you were my son i would be there at the doctors and whatever you needed, if only my son at 29 would seek help he is in denial. i would buy a book and talk it through with you, i have anxiety myself and ive had depression.

Im proud of you as you have stood up and said i have depression its nothing to be ashamed of, i tell my work friends im on anxiety pills i dont care who knows. It can only get better from here. well done. mum

coolbanana · ‎07-12-2013

Hi Chris,

i am not long been here, read your posts and want to say thank you for still being here. No advice from me just gunna sit with you ( in my mind) and pray for relief

geoff · ‎08-12-2013

dear Chris, please don't stop posting, remember when you first started it was a critical post, one that needed complete attention, and yes all the others do as well, but that doesn't mean that you should stop.

You have taken a step forward as we can see, you probably can't believe that you have, and because of this you need to stay with us.

Each and every post is responded to by those of us who can relate to their problem. Geoff.

LostNConfused · ‎08-12-2013

Hi Chris,

I'm sorry to hear about your troubles.

You should take a look at this http://www.health.gov.au/internet/main/publishing.nsf/Content/mental-boimhc-ataps

its something called ATAPS - it lets you get 18 session with a psych. I just got a referral myself. you can still pay for extra if you want to, but 18 session should help out.

I know what your going through,

I've been on meds, since a BUNCH of doctors (psychologist/psychiatrist), only for them to repeat things I already know. and NONE of that helps in the slightest.

NO ONE bothers to asks me how I feel or help. all my "friends" (i use the term loosely) just avoid me and think its something I have to work out on my own, when the only thing I need to some one I can rely on, who can be there for me, someone trust.

My best friend abandoned my after my suicidal attempt, my family members think i should admit my self to a hospital. really made me regret surviving.

No support/no future prospects....I feel completely trapped in a depressing world, wondering...why? why did everything in my life have to be the worst case scenario. why? no matter what I tried or did, everything always failed or went bad for me.

I was having breakdowns everyday, it was nothing but constant suffering. all i wanted was someone to just be there/talk to, (friends think doctors handle that, a doctor says i should find comfort in my friends)

What I did, was close my eyes, stopped EVERYTHING for just a moment, all the pain all the hurtful thoughts, I focused completely on one moment, a warm thought (mine was just someone who i cared about hugging me) i stayed on that thought until, my heart slowed down, the thoughts stops (and yea I know its only temporary, and its REALLY REALLY hard when the thoughts are extremely overwhelming)

ATM i do volunteer work, just to get USED to being around people. but i know if something doesn't happen soon, I won't be able to keep this up for much longer.

I've only read parts of this forum/thread, but it looks like EVERYONE here wants to support and help you (it might not be much, when you feel completely alone and the world is against you, but acknowledge it as at least its something)

No matter how depressing, no matter how much pressure or problematic you think your pushing on people by posting, it's OK, because EVERYONE here wants to help you.

and I personally know how comforting it can feel to just tell someone what is going on, even if they do nothing, even if it gets nowhere, and i don't reach some new conclusion or thought, it is comforting to be able to talk to someone.

best of luck Chris

Jo3 · ‎09-12-2013

Hi LostNConfused

I feel for you that you are going through this alone with no family or friends support. I totally understand what you're saying. It's great to see that you are getting help.

It is great to read that you have some coping skills to help you. Doing volunteer work helps you get out of the house and mix with people, getting used to others around you. You will find work, keep strong because one day soon you will find it.

How you explained to Chris about closing your eyes and thinking of just one thing - that is fantastic. It's being mindful of where you are and what you're thinking. And thinking of someone who cares giving you a hug, that is so nice.

I do mindfulness a bit and it does help. It does slow your breathing down and you then feel calm.

Please take care

Jo

Chris D · ‎11-12-2013

Hi All,

Lying on my bed listening to music on my phone, have just read my other thread to try and lift me up but it hasn't worked and now feeling flat as a pancake.

It's like i come out with all this gd stuff and then boom it hits like a tonne of bricks out of nowhere. I don't get it. It's like something is missing inside me that is why i think feel i feel flat.

I put all of this effort in, all of this gd stuff and it's like it all goes in one swoop, then i'm left with nothing. I feel i put all of my effort in at once then that's it, i end up with no more energy, i feel tired all the time.

I feel lost sometimes, can't concentrate half the time i feel. I feel like i have changed into a different person, the inside is the same but the outside is very much different. It's like what is coming out and what i am showing isn't me, it isn't myself. It's dumb.

Kind Regards

Chris

Jo3 · ‎13-12-2013

Hey Chris,

How are you going? I was just thinking of you and hope you ok.

Jo

Chris D · ‎14-12-2013

Hi Jo,

Thankyou for thinking of me. I'm not to bad at the moment thankyou. Still have the thoughts but no where near as frequent or as bad as what they have been.

I have just replied to you regarding the xmas letter to your dad.

I think i should be asking you, how are you?

Kind Regards

Chris