Sharing feelings

[Ryan2021]

I don't really know if this is the right area to post this or not. Just having some real thoughts about life the last few days. Has been an odd few years, I am so over vaccine status, segregating people about medical choice, case numbers. Just over it all. Personally about 2 months ago my long distance relationship ended, I was heavily invested in it emotionally and was working my ass off to try and reunite us. I was told she was cheating but I still don't know what the truth is. We are still talking a bit and have sort of become friends. I recently tested positive to covid, fought it and have now been given 6 months exemption so I can work and travel without needing to take the vaccine.

I have done a lot in my 36 years of life. I have travelled many places and had some great times, memories and experiences. I bought a house and sold it, I bought my own car and I paid it all off. I wanted to race gokarts and I did that this year.
I always dreamed of having a beautiful girlfriend and never thought I would have one. But I got one.
I have done everything in my life I wanted to do. I am happy and I am content with what I have achieved.

Only thing I haven't done is get married but I don't know if I can love again and it seems so far away. I think I am emotionally scarred.

I just recently started dating again. The girls were great, but I didn't have any feeling there, it just felt like friends and there was no chance of progression.

I had planned to return to my home state after living away for 10 years it was time to return to my family. If the current rules mean I can't work unless I get vaccinated, I will have nothing to do than just stay home. I would be a burden on my family and know that my parents will be constantly in my ear telling me to take the vaccine that I don't want. I feel like I am stuck in that sense because I was returning to be with them.

So my next plan is to get out of Australia I don't Iike what my country has become with these mandates and the way people are being treated. Normal people being called extremists because they don't want to follow the government's agenda. Parents who care for their children's future, all different religions, age groups.

I am working hard now saving up to go away for 3-6 months.

I hope to live in another country, where it is cheap, not have to work, eat amazing food. Then I feel like my life is done. I feel like I have accomplished all I want to do and have nothing more to give.

[white knight]

Hi, welcome

We all have choices in life and being an adult you have yours, regardless of others beliefs. Better to just discount your parents attempts to enforce theirs onto you than argue. Just change the topic.

I'm 66yo and had 4 long term relationships, 7,11,10 and now 12 years long. Married twice 2 kids now adults. Each time the hurt eroded my desire to get another lady in my life, but my now wife is so magnificent that I'm glad I persevered. Give yourself time and you might seek out, especially now that you know what you DONT want!.

I think you see other countries with rose coloured glasses. Not working is a dream that isnt feasible, therefore a waste of brain matter imo. An old lady told me once "you'll never get anywhere without hard work". 

We are all subject to the negative effects of Govt decisions. However, you can build a insulation from the politics that go on. This is all part of acceptance needed because if you cannot change the systems by which we live under then its wasted effort. More so, getting things into perspective. My therapist once said (1987) "Tony, when are you going to stop changing the world"? and "9 billion grey thinking people and you are black and white". It all made sense. Now I deplore pollies but I accept they are an breed of person that exists.

Pursue your go-carts but you not meet a girl there, buy a cute little dog and thats another story. 

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/the-best-praise-you-ll-ever-get/td-p/134999

TonyWK