Runaway

[Mez79]

Do you ever wish you could runaway from yourself, to not have these constant woes hanging over your head.

[Mez79]

Just feels like any one I can lean on have all taken off on holidays or have their life to deal and I'll be the last person to be a burden to them. So if others are taking off on me why can't I. Has anyone else felt like this?

[April30]

YEP!! It sucks ay..

[Mez79]

It may have made me look like the green eyed monster but I've had to remove myself from a couple of messenger groups because all I could see was friends posting food and destinations while I sit here battling anxiety about my health on my own. It's s#$t.

[Ggrand]

Hello Mez,

Im sorry your struggling so much with anxiety..health?..

I have depression/anxiety and a few more mh problems...

I wish it was possible to runaway from ourselves..I think that’s it’s possible because our anxiety and mh problems still come with us...I have tried running away before and it just makes things harder to manage..

Mez...I’m wondering if you’ve talked to you gp about your anxiety, I feel that’s the best place to seek help and a professional person to lean on...and help you to understand your health anxiety...

I lean on the wonderful people here...I live alone with my children and children hundreds of kilometres away..and it’s hard for me to travel to see them because of my anxiety and many triggers that lurk around there homes and them as well...I found my best friend here...even though we are not allowed to meet...We are here for each other in good and bad times...

Maybe you could try here...to lean on others here..and join in any conversation that you feel comfortable with...I have been helped by so many amazing people here....

Im not sure if I helped you at all...I wanted to let you know I listened to you and wanted to say hello and welcome to the BB forums...

I really hope you continue to talk here..looking forward to hearing from you again..when you feel to..

Kind thoughts...

Grandy..

[April30]

That's fair enough though, having to remove yourself from that. Feels like most the time there's nothing you can do to help yourself but if there's even one small thing that could help you, it's worth the try.

Cause yeh I can understand that would suck..

[Mez79]

Thanks Grandy.
I'm considering talking to the GP about what's bugging me like a lump I've found or my eye but concern about mentioning anxiety as they quickly turn to meds as a solution. I've seen my old man on antidepressants and it hasn't helped him a great deal. He doesn't want to know anything and doesn't feel up to doing anything. I don't want to fall into the same trap.
Hopefully by coming on here I just want to know that I'm not the only one having random thoughts or that I'm jealous at others doing things I'd like to do but can't.
Thank you for reaching out, hope I can be a sounding board as well.
Mez.

[Ggrand]

Hi Mez,

Im pleased your considering about seeing your gp....

Please try hard not to be afraid to mention your health anxiety...Most gp are very caring with our mh....There May be other alternatives instead of meds..councilling, group therapy etc...I didn’t like the idea of me taking meds..

I started them around Christmas last year properly, when I was hospitalised for nearly 6 weeks..I wouldn’t be without them now...they have helped me so much....I think meds work differently for each of us.....It’s entirely up to you if you want meds or not..Maybe something you can chat about with your gp...up to you...I’ll support you no matter which way you choose to go....

I don’t have much of a want for anything except to get myself well....It’s hard to watch others doing things that you want to do as well especially friends...I’m not sure..but I think it’s human nature to feel jealous of others..and then let it pass..if you hold on to the jealousy...It may cause you other mh issues....

Right now Mez..it’s your mh that’s important...to get under control..it is an illness..it is real..and it does pull us down..I am certain that once with your gps help you can start to manage your health anxiety and be able to do the things you want to...

Good night..I wish you a peaceful sleep with calming dreams..xx.

Hugs..xxx if you like them...

Grandy...

[Mez79]

You mentioned that you had other mh issues. My question is have you ever had this awful feeling that something is clinically wrong with you. A great amount of fear and above all that this dreadful sense of loneliness.
I try to be active almost every evening at the gym for an hour. I've even taken up zumba instructing. Yet I still feel so lonely.

[Ggrand]

Hello Mez,

No I don’t have health anxiety...I wish I could be more help to you their...I do have heart issues and am being treated for it..but I don’t worry about it because I have put my trust into my Cardiologist.....

My greatest fear is of people...just being around strangers can give me anxiety and anxiety attacks that sometimes puts me into hypoventilation.....also my loneliness can be very overwhelming at times..because of my anxiety I stay home 6 days a week..usually only going out to my volunteer job...then home...My mental health team, drives to to appointments and stay with me.....

Loneliness is so very hard to manage and it hurts deeply....
I live in a little rural village with under 200 residents who are all set in their own little groups for years..I’ve only been here for 4 years and only have one person in town I can call a friend...the others in town don’t talk to me..(reasons)...
There are no social events here, no gym, no shop, nothing...Nights I usually just lay around and watch tv..many nights with tears...My motivation has been non existent for many years...

Im pleased that your able to go to the gym most nights...and have some people contact..that’s really important....

Distraction is the best way to help us with our anxieties..but at times that’s really hard to do....I do mindfulness when I am over anxious....which I find helps me...
I hope your doing okay today Mez...

Sending you some virtual hugs...🤗🤗.

Grandy..