Opening up

[Infinity1199]

I'm sorry if my post is a little muddled but, not really use to writing like this...

I was diagnosed with depression last year after enduring over 5 years of bullying from my classmates. I remember just sitting in class and having my first nervous breakdown. I just started hyperventilating and crying because one of my bullies called me a fag. it was one of the most embarrassing moments of my life.

my school wasn't helpful, they didn't get that I was getting bullied because of my sexuality but always talked me into not pressing criminal charges against them. I felt like such a coward but I was scared.

Since I was diagnosed, my school forced me to move into distance education because they were concerned about the ramifications of my behaviour. they told me it was in ''my best interest'' but I think they just wanted to get rid of me before I killed myself or something. I've lost all of my friends and I basically have no social life.

at the moment:

-I've got NO FRIENDS

-I've screwed up my VCE courses again

-I'm having problems with my appearance

-I'm having difficulty with anger issues

I didn't know who else to turn to, I just wanted to talk to someone who isn't going to judge me.

I just want a friend....

[Infinity1199]

Hey Sad,

I understand what you mean, everyone's told me the same thing ''don't worry about it'', ''just get to the end, it's not much longer''. you know what? your right.

I could just keep it to myself but I know in my heart its not the right thing to do. if I decide to let it go, my former school might keep participating in the cycle of bullying and that means there's more kids like me who are forced to endure it because the school won't protect them.

I just want the chance to fix my problems and try to be a good person

[Sad_Puppy_Dog]

I totally get where you are at and honestly, doing something about it in the hopes to stop others going through the same experience is commendable. How much progress you could make is quite debatable but, just saying that in amongst all of the unfortunate crap, there is one little thing in there that is good to hold on to and wait for.

Have you found anything lately that has helped to let off some steam?