My head feels like it's full

[Chris D]

As the heading says, i'm feeling flat. I want company but i have restrictive funds for this coming week. Family things are starting to get on top of me along with my own personal issues, i just feel i'm about to crack under pressure, i'm not sure just how much more of this i can take.

I'm ready to erupt like a volcano if this pressure doesn't lift. My head feels like it's full and take in anymore information,  it just isn't ready and either is my body i can feel it.

At the same time i need to look for work to earn money but i just don't feel ready my meds make me tired and so i'm yawning all the time it just feels so hard. I may come across like i'm going well but this thread i'm just letting all things come out into the open.

I have a family member that is starting to worry about an operation that is coming up shortly in the next wk or so, so they are a concern. i'm quite sensitive at the moment more than usual.

Fell like i'm in a real bind, between a rock and a hard place. I have a splitting headache at the moment so that isn't helping. I have an ex friend who still keeps having digs at me of something that happened at the start of the year in public places and isn't true. She verbally abused me and indirectly had a go at how my parents raised my 2 older sisters and myself.

Feel like i'm a bull stuck in a cage just ready to be let out.

Kind Regards

Chris

[Jo3]

Hey Chris,

You're not a loner - you have so many friends on here wanting to help you.

Has something happened Chris?  When do you get to see your psych or GP again?

Chris, you have been on here for some many of us, it's now our turn to help you.  I know it's a hard road, bloody hard and at times you start to think of negative things, but pls don't think like that.  I know you are frustrated and angry, is there something that you can occupy your time - exercise, walk, hobbies?? Just a thought.

Pls take care, always remember that you can do this, you are strong.

Chat on here anytime

Jo

[giggles]

Hey Chris

I hope you are still reading these posts so in that you know its ok not to know what is triggering something sometimes. It is important to keep yourself safe though and I hope your silence on this thread is you doing just that.

I get though doing all the right things and nothing making a difference when you need it too. thats when I do my own personal stuff that I share with no one because it is solely my reaction to something that is usually linked to a habit of thinking.

No one can do that for me Chris and I suspect this might be you as well.

Now you have to write back to let us all know you are safe and have been sleeping?

Only downside to this site is the tracking of someone we are concerned about.

Trouble with group work too is that it can seem you are listening to everyone else but no one listening to you so too easy to get caught up in others problems.

I am not dishing group work at all it has its benefits but just sometimes someone might need something extra.Which I reckon was you the day you went.

I am actually off to a hospital to have health checks over the next few days which are heart related so I will check back in when I am over these Chris

I hope to see your posts because you got some good stuff going on there.

Giggles

[Mares73]

Hi Chris it's Mares. I'm worried about you. It's Friday. I wrote you a message to your other post last night so now I'm checking if you've looked here or there. Can you please let us know how you are? I've been thinking of you-wondering how you are & what you are doing? Chris sorry my memory isn't good today but can you remind me what types of support you have? And what types of medications? We aren't allowed to name them but you can tell me the type of antideppressant ie is it a SSRI OR SNRI OR trycical, or MMRO? And do you take other medications like antipsychotics? And what about relaxant medications like benzodiazepines? And how often do you see Pyschiatrist? Do you also see a Pyschologist? And what types of support groups are in your area? I don't know if you live in a city or the country? I think you mentioned the area you live in but I forgot? Chris I really care& am worried as I haven't heard from you. I hope you get this today and can write back?

Big hugs & thinking of yyou've Mares xxx

[JessF]

Hi Mares, I'm a little bit worried about you. Chris has said before that he comes and goes from the forum and I imagine he is probably spending time with his girlfriend.  I think its wonderful that you want to help others so much but this is a big big stressful weekend for you and I know you're not feeling much support at home at the moment.  Is there anything else we can do to help you, even if its just chatting about idle things?

[Chris D]

Hi Mares and Everyone,

Sorry i haven't posted. i have been reading posts but this last week has been a real struggle for me, even now as i write this post i don't feel like doing it. I have been spending time with some friends and support groups this wk. There is alot of things going on in my life that i just can't handle and so am struggling to comprehend everything.

Mares, i do have all the relevant support services and people involved with me but the time bewteen appointments is to long but htere is nothing people can do about it, as the area i live in is high for people who have a mental illness.

Spending time with my friends and groups, i still very down, flat and somewhat used in a way. I am feeling very isolated, alone and abandoned by services and people.

So i'm not to good. Haven't felt this bad since before xmas. Regarding the meds, i have been on the same medication since i was released from hospital last August and just recently got a slight increase in that medication.

Just haven't had the energy to post anything or even do anything.

Cheers

Chris

[Mares73]

Dear Jess, I only just read your msg. Thankyou so so much-I'm pretty certain I haven't read anything you've posted?? -so perhaps you are just reading others stories & providing such wonderful insight & support when I'm not sure of your own situation. Yes a lot worries me about tomorrow-I can't see my Pysch doing much to help given her flippant attitude last week. So I'm extremely concerned where to turn next. My GP is totally ignorant of mental health & I can't bear another week like last as I fear my thoughts. 

I guess my checks on Chris are due to his constant unhappiness & struggle & I'm not sure it's just depression-so I was hoping he would feel our support & clarify for me my sense of his illness & struggles. I hope you know what I mean? 

So in the event you read this Chris-remember your friends are here when you need them. 

And Jess -thankyou. Lve Mares xxx

[Chris D]

Hi All,

Like my other thread i did try to reply but BB didn't post it. I have been reading your posts for me - THANKYOU.

I haven't been to gd for over a wk now. Mares i have depression. Just really struggling at the moment with things going on for me and my mum, as explained in my other thread.

I would like to say thankyou to all who have posted for me, i really appreciate all of your support and kind words.

Chris

[Neil_1]

Hi Chris,

It IS great to hear back from you. 

I'm sorry to hear though that you're not travelling well.

Please remember always, that you have a whole host of support here.

I'll flick over to your other post and catch up on what's been happening.

Later dude,

Neil

[giggles]

Hi Chris

welcome back you are a valuable member here. I can only hope things have lifted a little for you.

giggles