hi, I recently graduated high school and this has apparently had a huge impact on my life. I've had a million mood swings in the last week. I suddenly have nothing to do after 13 years and my boredom is turning into anger. I've been told by a few people that the reason I'm so irritable lately is because I'm so bored.
I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression 4 years ago and had aggressive mood swings even before then, but none like as of late.
I've been getting angry at everyone and everything. even the smallest thing makes me unreasonably angry.
something that would've annoyed me last month, makes me so angry I can feel it spread through my body.
it's like a white hot feeling that washes over me when I get mad and it doesn't go away for at least a few minutes after I first feel it.
it's become so bad in the last few days I've been worried about seriously lashing out. when I get mad at someone I usually try to walk away and take a break but sometimes they'll keep responding in a way that makes me so mad I feel compelled to go back and argue. when I'm arguing with them if I can't make myself walk away I'll evolve to the point of screaming.
even the smallest thing makes me indescribably angry. I'm aware that it was irrational after the fact but in the moment I feel justified.
I really have no idea what's happening with me and if this could really just be because I'm bored. it might be because of my depression but I've never been mad like this before. has anyone else dealt with smth like this??
