dear Marg, welcome to the site.
I can see how much hurt there is from what has happened all your life, but firstly I would like to know why you are stopping your medication, because I don't believe that this is a good idea, but let's put that aside at the moment, and talk about it a bit later, or when other wonderful people have also replied.
People outside of this site may say that you just made up all these fabrications just for attention seeking, maybe or maybe not, but your parents were never encouraging to you towards anything in life, plus your partner has no empathy to what you have to say, so it's been ongoing all your life, and by going to hospital was a chance to stand up and say 'hey I need some help here, I'm desperate for help', however by doing this only made your situation worse, as there would be no support from the doctor's who would add to the fabrication, so your back to square one.
You have no self esteem at all and this includes any confidence, because it's always been pushed away, so now your at the bottom, which means that you shouldn't be stopping your medication or perhaps it needs to be changed and to be re-accessed.
There is so much more that needs to be spoken about, but I want to wait for others to respond first, as now is approaching my log off time, but will continue tomorrow, but please have a think about what I have said. L Geoff. x
