dear Shock, I'm sorry I have missed your post.
This is a very serious problem that we have here, as nothing seems to be working for you, however there have people above who are also taking this as serious.
There's an interesting site that I have googled and I hope that you have the strength to be able to have a look, and it's 'other options when psychologists can't stop me committing suicide'.
This is not pertinent so much to this discussion, however it's a side issue, as it reminds me many years ago when my Dad (GP) was in partnership with a few other doctors, and at exactly 3pm one doctor went missing, and this happened for awhile, so Dad, being the main partner, followed him to see where he went, and he hopped into his car and swallowed a large quantity of a alcohol, and went back to work.
Dad confronted him and asked where he was, 'caught like flyn', and sacked on the spot.
This just relates back to any psych not being able to help you, and follows on with the site to google.
When I was depressed there was no way I would ever join a gym, club or any social event, while others could do it, it couldn't, just like you.
My psychologist kept on suggesting that I do it, but I didn't have any inclination nor the strength or willingness, so I stayed at home and drank.
If anybody came they would always say to me 'pissed again', why don't you go outside and do something, 'why should I do that', although I did throw the ball to Tessie, but I did that for her, not me.
All in all it's a terrible place to be in, and I understand exactly how you feel. Geoff.
