Ulysses, sure would be.
I think its an ellusion to believe we can fix life and make those bad memories go away.
But, if we dwell on them to much it will ruin all xmas's for the test of our lives.
If we are alone for any length of time, with these open wounds still fresh or permanently scarred we must try to make the best of a situation. I'm not suggesting fake positivity. I'm suggesting to think that xmas, like birthdays and other spevial day, is what you make it.
On the funny side there is a skit of Mr Bean in a restaurant. He grabs a birthfay card from a bag, writes on it then seals it and places it on the table. Then, looking surprised he sees the card and opens it to read his own birthday card. He has his own party.
If I was alone I'd make my own turkey dinner with cranberry sauce, baked vegies and pav. I would watch the carols the night before.
I wouldnt spoil it with thoughts about the past. That would allow memories to win.
Oh, and too right, I'd have a xmas tree. Ya gotta have a tree.
Tony WK
