Ukrose,
I believe I might've just replied to you in another thread about the ways that I've found to manage my anxiety, so I'll try my best not to repeat anything that I've already said!
I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your brother. It's never easy to suffer a loss, but the loss of people who we are close with can leave particularly deep scars. Grief is also not linear and can look different for everybody. Some days are better than others. I've always found that my intuition is useful for telling me how I need to grieve, whether I need to cry, write out my thoughts, reminisce with people about good memories, or anything else that brings me some kind of solace amidst my suffering.
Do you have anybody else you can talk to about the loss of your brother? Is there anyone else who knew him well, or perhaps knows you well, who you'd feel comfortable opening up to about your grief?
We're here to support you through everything that you're going through right now. Even though you may feel alone, there are people around who can and would love to support you and help you. When you're struggling, it can feel like such a burden, and feeling better can sometimes feel impossible, but just know that you don't have to go through it all on your own, and it is possible to heal and reach an optimal state of wellbeing. Sometimes, it's all about making small steps to help yourself feel a little better day by day, and these can lead to bigger changes to your wellbeing over time.
I hope this helps. We're here for you, and we're here to chat more if you need.
Take care, SB
