Hi Brett.
call the help lines as often as you need to. We can often blame ourselves for things that happen, but I’m sure it wasnt disconnected on purpose. Could have been a problem with the telco?!?
i know that some GPs are not as good as we expect them to be. I’ve had a couple like that, but then you may come across a GP that has way more empathy and is far more helpful than any previous.
we cant change our past, and we cant predict the future, all we can do is make decisions for the present moment.
if you are tired, tuck yourself into bed and try to get some sleep.
i heard once that the word depressed is much like deep-rest. And that is what your mind and body need, a deep rest. You have used an enormous amount of energy with the thoughts and feelings that brought you here, so you need time to rest.
Try to do little things to get some wins. It is easier said than done, but maybe even try something different. Maybe get a small piece of wood, and some coarse sand paper and sand until you have a duck. Concentrate on the duck, if anything comes into you thoughts just let it come and then go, and return to the duck.
Challenge yourself to see how much you can do before taking a break.
it doesnt have to be a duck, could be any shape, a car, a beetle.
there is hope, its just that your bucket is full.
if you can visualise a bucket over your head. Everything we hold on to or dont deal with fills up the bucket. If we keep doing this the bucket will eventually overflow and we get wet. We need to find ways to scoop the water out regularly to stop it from overflowing.
i hope your day becomes brighter. Take care of yourself little by little.
Not Batman
