Depression and anxiety ... so tired

[lindam]

Hi I'm new here. Have read quite a few threads and can totally relate.

I have high anxiety and depression though I feel my anxiety is the cause of the depression. I wind myself up to the point where the depression sets in. If you want the worst case scenario, well my mind will come up with it. 😯 I never seem to have any real peace in my head and if I do I am always preparing for the next bad thing that will pop into my mind.

I've been told I have PTSD from a violent relationship in the past. I'm no longer really scared of him... my problems are what my mind dishes up for me. I consider myself very lucky as I managed to get out alive and I have 5 great kids. They are mostly grown and I still feel a bit lost at times because being their mum was my job and I loved it.

However I am just so damn tired and really sick of living with my mind and all of it's creations. 😒

It is so hard to pull myself out of it most of the time. I know it's bad when music doesn't help as I love love love it.

Is this tiredness and maybe even laziness a thing you experience. I would hate to think I am simply lazy. 😦

[cakeboss]

Hi sorry to hear that you went through domestic voilence .I didnt have that happen to me and can only amagain what that would have been like.I am a single mum with 3 girls and find that finances seem to play a role in my anxiety and depression.I hadnt had anxiety depression in ages and all of a sudden some financial issues that where huge that have now been sorted out thank god .I see a psycitrist and he said to me that even though ive gone through this huge finance issue my body hasnt settled down from it all and its normal .I suffer from terrible panic attacks anxiety to the point that each morning i wake up and its there nausea feeling vomity on edge cant eat .I have to try my best to ride it out .I am on medications which may not be fully working at the moment but ive got to wait till 1st november to see psycitrist again as he said if i hadnt gone through this huge financial issue hed change my meds but for now im praying my body settles back to normal .The stressful situation went on for 4 months so its really made a mess of my anxiety .I am worrying any little illness and panic attack starts and off to the gp .I am due to start my second round of counciling soon .Ive been told to keep busy and mornings are my worst time .I work and it is a distraction .I was fantastic for the last 3 weeks no anxiety felt on top of the world now its back again so over it .Im off to work soon so ill keep busy .I even worry in the mornings for not eating does anyone else suffer early morning anxiety .I would love to hear from anyone who feels the same and see that im not the only one .I dont feel like eating but have managed to eat some toast and a banana today .I know that i have no reason to have this anxiety attack panic attack early in morning so why do i have it back .I went to the gp monday and tuesday feeling terrible they said to me it was defently anxiety and id given myself a panic attack .I have a wonderful gp so understanding .Does anyone else freek out if they have somthing wrong and think the worst its panick anxiety .I just did the headspace meditation got half through it .I cant wait to wake up and no anxiety .I do have a good support network .