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Anxiety mixed with purpose in life

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Hi there. I will try to write down all my nightmare shortly. So Im a 29 year old guy and struggling to find some meaning in life. Four years ago I moved to Australia and been trying really hard to settle in, create something nice for the future. This... View more

Hi there. I will try to write down all my nightmare shortly. So Im a 29 year old guy and struggling to find some meaning in life. Four years ago I moved to Australia and been trying really hard to settle in, create something nice for the future. This time I thought I will make it,I will get a good grip of life,I will find out what I have to do while on this earth, I will create myself.. But time flies fast and here I am, almost 30 years old.. Still with the same questions every day, every hour of my life.. But the worst thing here is the anxiety because of all those questions. Its really hard to describe.. Usually I can feel it pretty much all the time and it drains me quickly. I want to sleep after couple hours after im awake, hard to concentrate. The worst anxiety is in the morning and it wakes me up early. And then it hits the hardest.. all those thoughts about my life,of what I supposed to be done till now, career path to which I supposed to chose years ago just goes as an auto pilot.. And after I get out of bed every morning - I am the same person without passion,direction or plans for the future. And oh my... I tried many things to calm myself down and listen.. Even vipassana retreats, meditations etc..I thought I need to go deeper into myself and maybe I will learn and understand something or at least will reduce anxiety. Eventually nothing worked out And I always came back to where I was. And nowadays its so hard to be interested into something for a long periods of time. If theres a sparkle of motivation and interest to begin something - it fades away quickly. Probably for some of you I sound like a child who never had a real problems. But its just a tiny piece of mind. Everything is much darker and more painful. Ive been diagnosed GAD,depression etc but i try not to concentrate on those things. Im really an active person,have some hobies,trying to help fellow humans as much as I can and do good things in life. And meantime im trying to hold that negativity and pain for myself that would not affect people around me. And all this tragedy began about 8 years ago. Ive been thinking to go for a therapy which costs hell of a money and not sure if it would help.. to cry and whine for an hour to a stranger for 200 bucks while probably he pretends he’s care and eventually will pump you up with a happy pills.. I tried to help myself but it seems to me that Im not gonna make it. And every day this pitiful existence becomes even more agonising.

Is it moraly right to talk about others on here?

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Hi I didn't know what section to write this in. Since i wrote my latest post about my neighbour, ive been starting to think is is moraly ok too talk about others in a negative light on a public platform? I'd be mortified and furious if someone did ab... View more

Hi I didn't know what section to write this in. Since i wrote my latest post about my neighbour, ive been starting to think is is moraly ok too talk about others in a negative light on a public platform? I'd be mortified and furious if someone did about me so does that make it wrong for me to write about someone else? Does anyone else at times have a niggle feeling of guilt? And wonder if its moraly wrong or right? Lynne

Anxiety symptoms

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Today I been experiencing hearing my heartbeat in my ears and feeling all over my body.... I am not sure this is a symptom or not ? Sighs...

Insomnia

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Hi, I have complex ptsd, depression etc. When I get a bout of depression I succumb to insomnia. I have tried many sleep medications over the years unsuccessfully. Changed t he environment in my bedroom as well. Stopped drinking coffee and abstain fro... View more

Hi, I have complex ptsd, depression etc. When I get a bout of depression I succumb to insomnia. I have tried many sleep medications over the years unsuccessfully. Changed t he environment in my bedroom as well. Stopped drinking coffee and abstain from tv, phone etc. Is insomnia more related to the ptsd or the depression...has anyone any experience with this? I am getting 3 hrs of sleep a night and this is the forth week and it starting to affect many aspects of daily living including not being able to remember.

OCD-OCD-OCD How do you cope?

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Hello Everyone, there have been so many comments regarding this demanding illness, but it goes deeper than 'checking the lock', it involves counting to a specific number and each person has a number, mine is 4 but that doesn't mean I just have to cou... View more

Hello Everyone, there have been so many comments regarding this demanding illness, but it goes deeper than 'checking the lock', it involves counting to a specific number and each person has a number, mine is 4 but that doesn't mean I just have to count to that number, because we feel that certain numbers have a special significance, and therefore specific actions must be performed a certain number of times. This obsession/compulsion, however, could be performed not only once but several times so you may do a habit 10 times but only count to 4. Certain things need to be done on a specific day and if it does happen on another day then our anxiety increases. It also involves lots of other small habits, like when we go to bed, and certain obsessions we have to perform and even our own idiosyncrasies that happen throughout the day. People may check their locks, 'better safe than sorry' but there's a huge difference between that compared to someone who has OCD because 'there is a lot at stake' and if not performed, 'something will go wrong.' I could go on but interested in other people's comments. Geoff. This is such a complex illness that we can't explain it anybody else

Physical Symptoms Anxiety

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I've been struggling with various symptoms over the past four months. Most of them I can attribute to anxiety, but one particular symptom has been scaring me. I've felt off-balanced and heavy when I stand up and walk around. It feels like someone is ... View more

I've been struggling with various symptoms over the past four months. Most of them I can attribute to anxiety, but one particular symptom has been scaring me. I've felt off-balanced and heavy when I stand up and walk around. It feels like someone is pushing down on the top of my head, overall just a very heavy feeling/pressure in the head. I'm wondering if anyone feels this? I'm really concerned about a brain tumor, and I want to get an MRI. But, I have health anxiety and frequently fear different ailments.

Anxious every morning, self medicating

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Does anyone else feel this way? I am fine for the first 2 hours in the morning, I go to gym and I am fit, but then terrible anxiety sets in. Every day. The only thing that calms me down is booze. This is my life now.

Health anxiety going great then gets me again!

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Hey Guys Been a while since I've had any health anxiety but it has got me again!! Quick story below... My partner and I broke lease recently on his place then moved into my parents for a few weeks, we found the best house and got approved! So we were... View more

Hey Guys Been a while since I've had any health anxiety but it has got me again!! Quick story below... My partner and I broke lease recently on his place then moved into my parents for a few weeks, we found the best house and got approved! So we were really excited to move in. The weekend comes where we move in and turns out its his weekend to have his 2 children. They are the best ever but it was very hard trying to move our house and me keep an eye on them at the same time. Got through it during the day and then then Miss 3 got sick with vomiting all afternoon and night, had a home doctor come out in the mess of the new house and she was ok just had to monitor her. Ended up spending the rest of weekend moving with the kids which was really hard. On the Monday my partner advised that his ex wanted us to have the kids this weekend which i really didn't want to as we have so much to do, he has to work, we have to finish unpacking and setting up the house etc. After a bit of going back and forth he advised the ex he couldnt take care of them. I then come to work Tuesday and our company has recently sold so we have a new management team who had flown up from Sydney. They advised us of all new processes we have to do which was quite overwhelming. Anyway, since this week, my health anxiety has been crap. I have been feeling like i couldnt breathe, I had a home doctor come out on Tuesday night and he checked me over and said my chest and lungs were clear but i had a bit of a red throat. I thought that was ok then I went to work on Wednesday and thought I was having an allergic reaction, my sister took me to the doctors downstairs and they put me on a nebuliser and checked me over and said i have 100% oxygen, my chest and lungs are clear and its stress/panic. They did put me on prednisone though due to all the smoke from the bushfires nearby. Today, i do feel a bit better but I am getting back pain and feels like I"m still short of breath feels like I can't get that right amount of air! It's really uncomfortable and I just don't know how to go about it. Apparently my lungs are very clear but it doesn't feel it Sorry about the ramble I just thought I would put in the back story!

Health Anxiety My living nightmare!!!!

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Hi , first time here as you’ve probably already guessed I suffer with health anxiety it all started 6yrs ago with a major panic Attack which required an ambulance and a stay in hospital as I really thought I was dying and new nothing about what a pan... View more

Hi , first time here as you’ve probably already guessed I suffer with health anxiety it all started 6yrs ago with a major panic Attack which required an ambulance and a stay in hospital as I really thought I was dying and new nothing about what a panic Attack was until that day , fast forward to now & cut a long story short I was diagnosed with a thyroid issue have been on medication now for a few years and it seems to be ok but it can sometimes play up which can increase my anxiety pretty bad when my levels are out I’m also on medication to try and combat the anxiety but sometimes when I’m really worried and anxious it doesn’t do a great deal . Like at the moment , about 6 weeks ago I was out with my husband and 2 year old and we were in a shop and I was literally fine talking away not thinking of a thing and then out of no where I got a very severe pain in the side of my head so bad I felt a bit sick and had to sit down it didn’t last long maybe 1min if that and it was gone had a couple of twinges later in the afternoon but nothing more after that and I have never experienced anything like it before as you can imagine for someone with health anxiety this has now caused me to think I have a brain tumour I thought not much more about after it happened and thought I was ok but last week I had a similar thing just not painful when I was driving my son to swimming I started to feel strange in my head and really foggy and kept zoning out and really struggled to sit through his lesson because I felt like something awful was about to happen , so now since last Tuesday I’m in a completely full blown anxious state and fearing the worst that I have a brain tumor as I have a sore neck and continue to have sharp pains on my head I don’t have headaches but I do feel off balance and really feel like I’m lacking concentration and my memory is shocking and getting stuck on words this is really worrying me I’m in such a state I do have an appointment with my doctor on Friday. I wish so MUCH I could just be normal and be like oh well whatever like when my husband has anything wrong he just doesn’t even think twice about it I wish so much I could feel the same but I just continue to go in a vicious cycle last month was esophageal cancer because I have reflux before that I was convinced it was my heart because my reflux was playing up I literally have had every test possible apart from a brain scan and all are always fine aside from my thyroid and low iron .

getting worse again, affecting me, need advice

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Since 1st serious boyfriend, I been incredibly emotional, bouncing from excited to worried/panicky to horny in the space of an hour. My overthinking and general worry that I felt before him has been put under a microscope, & I talk to him about it an... View more

Since 1st serious boyfriend, I been incredibly emotional, bouncing from excited to worried/panicky to horny in the space of an hour. My overthinking and general worry that I felt before him has been put under a microscope, & I talk to him about it and he tries to understand but I don't want him to feel like he is doing anything wrong all the time by me always venting - it is healthy to do it and I won't stop, but when it feels constant I also need to manage it, which I don't know how. He makes me happy and is fantastic&the emotions that come with it is overwhelming at times Some issues 4 me are decision making (I cant make decisions it stressful and become agitated when someone insists I make a decision. Leads to guilt) general anxiety about hating work and uni, feel like am not in position to do anything for convenience last minute decisions, whether it is me or someone else. With friends I try to organise in advance, never works. My boyfriend is last minute & he is always doing things like "we could do this or this, might do this later if you want, or I might go out with them" and it stresses me. going out. I have to allow myself two hours to get ready so that I can cry and have a breakdown before. I think what if I know no one, or it's awkward, but also get agitated about what to wear, which is artificial, but it important to me to feel good, which I never do. Then I compare myself to others and feel worse. These breakdowns result in me staying home with depressed spirits feeling like people may be angry/disappointed in me. I have reasons to justify it, but I let it affect me As of late one stressor has been organising holiday with boyfriend. Both of us r doing 2 uni degrees and 5 jobs. We see each other when we can and go out and he does his absolute best, but its hard. His family is really religious and his mum doesn't like the idea of it, thinking it is an excuse to have sex. For me it difficult because my logic is no matter if it's 7 months of 3 years, that will always be an issue. When will we ever go away? It is early and I am happy to give it time, but sex and religion are things I have strong opinions about so it difficult for me. The purpose of this post was to get some ideas on how to manage this. It is affecting me and while I have to communicate with people around me - which I do - the second half is managing it myself, yet I am struggling and feel I have no one else to turn to.

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