New here and just want to let out some thoughts

[Cron_Crust]

Hi,

As I’ve mentioned this is my first time posting on a forum. Um, so I just wanted to talk about mood swings and how it’s affecting my life so far.

I’m at uni currently and just switched courses because my previous one made me so miserable, mostly because of my fluctuating mood. I couldn’t bring myself to do much work on most days because my mind was filled with thoughts about how I don’t deserve to be there and how I’m not capable enough.

I should probably mention that I have experienced these thoughts for many years and have had mood swings for the same amount. I initially chalked it down to hormones seeing how it coincided with my teenage years but later on I began to think that maybe that’s not it. At one point in the last few years, I found myself attending therapy where I was diagnosed with mild depression.

My main concern is with my studies, because I’ve become avoidant of my responsibilities towards my degree because well... it scares me. I want to go on to study educational psychology myself in the future (hopefully) but my mental health may become an issue as it’s stood in the way of my passion before.

I really would like to get better but I just don’t know how. If anyone could share strategies that have worked for them or someone they know I’d greatly appreciate it.

[Jasjit]

No problem Cron_Crust!

I am always here to support you.

Talk to you soon.

[Cron_Crust]

Hi Tay100,

Great to hear back from you. Laptop shopping often takes me months too so totally understand haha.

For me, my week would look more like doing a few things to tidy up my work space, practicing mindfulness meditation like I used to in the past, reading a little, going back to drawing as it helps me calm down and managing my study schedule to have a good work-life-study balance. I sometimes struggle with guilt for not studying as much as I'd like to and getting the marks I want, which disrupts my schedule.

This is a bit of a pipe dream, but I do want to do some graphic art in the future not as a full-time job but maybe part-time or just as a hobby. I was looking through some animators on youtube and found their stories of creating art very similar to mine. But it could be a good hobby for when I have free time.

If you had some free time, what would you like to do?

Take care,

Cron_Crust

[Cron_Crust]

Hi Jasjit,

Thank for replying so soon. Thanks for being so supportive. Looking forward to chat with you in the future!

Take care,

Cron_Crust

[Cron_Crust]

Hi,

So, I'm not doing so well at the moment. I think this is natural and everyone has these days. I've had a mediocre week and wasn't successful at a job trial at a restaurant. It's a pity because I was looking forward to this one and prepared extensively managing my stress, interview questions and prerequisites before attending the trial. And all it took was one slip up for me to fail. I know it's small but I just wanted to win at something this week and I failed... so feeling a bit bummed out. Thanks for reading this.

Take care,

Cron_Crust.

[Tay100]

Hi Cron_Crust

Sorry to hear about the interview- it can be frustrating when we feel we have prepared so much. Was there any part of the interview that you felt went well, or taught you something important you can take with you for next time?

Tay100