I need help!

[Skiitz123]

Hey everyone i am 18 years old and currently in the middle of joining the Army.

In the army, You are NOT aloud anxiety or depression, So i had to say that i didn't have it.

i was in a routine for awhile of waking up early, Training and going to bed at a reasonable hour and repeated that for a while and whilst doing this

my Anxiety had disappeared! Iv fallen out of routine and my anxiety has come back and hit harder than ever! For the last week or 2 it's been really bad and nothing seems to be helping, Im trying to get back into routine and see if that helps but no sign of it helping just yet.... But i will keep trying. When i was younger i smoke marijuana for the first time and it was laced with ice but i didnt know and it caused me to hallucinate so when my anxiety kicks in, It feels as if im going hallucinate again! I seek help instantly because im scared i wont join the army and scared that il never be the same or normal again! Iv had suicidal thoughts too thats how bad its hit me..... I havnt left bed all day as im too scared to do anything really........

help me please... What should i do 😞 i want it completely gone forvever! 


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[gmc]

Dear Skiitz123,

First of all, welcome to beyondblue.

I think others would be better than me in giving advice, but I can start with telling you what I learned from therapy - try to find the real reason of your worrie, if it's really going to be as you are thinking of. Just think of what would happen IF, and follow the argument, so that you'll see if your worries are justified or not. I don't know how to explain, but this is a start... Besides sharing this on the forums, which is something very good also.

Have you considered seeing your GP or a counselor? I'd advice you to do it, if you're in the middle of a crisis, because they re trained to help in these situations. You can find a practitioner on this website too.

Keep strong 🙂

[white knight]

HI Skiitz,  welcome here.

As GMC said, finding out the real reason for your anxiety is a good move.

I joined the RAAF in 1973. Was a civilian security guard at Puckapunyal Army base in the 1990's. I know how the armed forces can be when it comes to medicals and their insistence you go to their medical GP not a civilian one etc.

However, I had broken my toe in 1973 one week prior to joining.
I put up with incredible pain as I trotted around in huge hard boots when doing my recruit training. But I survived. The less they know the better I say. So dont let the secret out, it will backfire on you.

In the meantime google lots and read articles and threads here on this forum. Search for 'Progressive muscle tensioning" and deep breathing exercises that you can do prior to sleeping. Make sure you get your 8 hours sleep. Also you might grow out of it in time but....learning new trades and experiences in the army will be stressful so bare in mind you will settle more at the end of training when you are posted to a 'permanent' base.

Take care