I don't understand

Amarant88 · ‎25-08-2013

I'm 25 years old and I don't know what's wrong with me. I am in my last semester of uni and I have no motivation at all to complete anything and when I do, it's a struggle. It's really scary. Previously to this semester, I was doing quite well academically and prided myself on my strong writing abilities, but now it seems I have forgotten everything. I am even struggling writing this post and thinking clearly. I feel numb and helpless. I was taking medication for anxiety a few months ago and told my doctor that I didn't need them anymore, but now I feel I have depression. I feel if I were to see my GP again and possible get counselling help, it would take too much time out of my degree and I'm not sure if I can afford it. What should I do? I don't wanna ruin my life. I just wanna be happy and motivated again.

vip · ‎26-08-2013

Hi Amarant you answered your own question there go straight to your gp psych you clearly have depression which needs to be treated . Let your doctor be the one to take you off that medication dont self diagnose yourself. I did this to myself 3 years ago and i ended up committing suicide and survived please be cautious with this medication your feelings moods ect. Take care

maddiexx · ‎26-08-2013

Hey, I don't have any advice but I feel like I'm in the same boat.. the only thing that gets me out of bed in the morning is the consequences to being late for work, then once I get there I can't focus properly anyway. I'm 20 and this is my first time posting anything but every night I read these forums and they've been giving me just a little more courage to share my emotions. I think if I was in your situation I would try to get help as soon as possible so that you can get the best out of your degree and if it takes too much time surely you have the option to catch up in an extra semester? Please don't let your depression ruin your years of hard work xx

geoff · ‎27-08-2013

dear Amarant, anxiety doesn't just come and then go, once you have it, it requires a great deal of effort to be able to control it.

People who have been taking antidepressants stop taking them because they feel better, and the reason they feel better is because of this medication, but with in a short time they fall back into depression.

I feel good but a couple of weeks ago I forgot to take my antidepressants for 2 days, and down I went, I would cry at the drop of a hat, but as soon as I took them within 15 minutes I better.

The same theory applies with you, so you have to go back to your doctor and tell him/her how you feel, and they will help you out with medication.

Some psychiatrists bulk bill, however your doctor will provide you with a medicare plan that allows you to have 10 free appointments every year, which is good for you because it's nearing the end of the year.

You will be able to organise appointment times that are convenient for you.

I am just wondering whether something awful has happened to you which instigated this feeling. Geoff.

Amarant88 · ‎08-09-2013

Thanks for the responses everyone.

I realise coming off the meds may of been a little premature but I have seen my GP, who has put me on an increases dosage and have talked about a plan for a psychologist. But he can't see me for 2 weeks. So I hope I can still function until then.

Geoff, I can pinpoint anything directly, which annoys me. I'm wondering how understanding universities are, because it's a battle to even write a severance for an assignment.

Yoli · ‎08-09-2013

HI Amarant88

Please speak with a councillor at your university. They will assist you, you will be able to get extensions for your assignments and you will be able to have more time to do your exams. If however, you feel that you cannot cope with the demands, think about dropping one or two subjects so that you can pass the subjects that you continue doing.

Best of luck

giggles · ‎08-09-2013

Hi Amarant88

I am sure someone there can help you with getting a break for uni until you recover to the extent that you can cope. I know I would not expect a Dr to preform surgery if he/she is not feeling ok mentally.Would you?

Your life is definitely not over because of this you just need to make some changes that fit what is going on with you. There is no absolutely no failure here.

I picked up studies again and as for the feelings of wasted money ha to that whats more important at the end of the day,

You have the knowledge of the difference to write about things when you are doing ok academically all any one can ask of you is to do your best with what you have.

I hope you know the wisdom of letting something go but not give up on it.Life just may have other things in store for you but its mental work rather than formal written work.Your body is speaking to you so this is the time to listen and learn how to care for it in your own unique way. Who knows you may write about it one day.

All the best

Giggles (Make sure you do that while recovering)

geoff · ‎09-09-2013

dear Amarant, with depression most of the time we don't know why we have it, but it can happen for people who have lost a close friend or dear family member.

Maybe it could be a string of events that causes us to get it, and maybe this was how I got this illness.

I was self employed but had 6 months work in front of me, and everybody wanted their work done yesterday, plus the fact that my wife and I were having difficulty, as she was sleeping in a different room, plus it was affecting our sons and how they felt.

There must have been many other problems but at the moment evade me, which then makes the counselling so hard, because the psychologist doesn't even know where to even begin.

With regard to your university this would depend on how congeal the teachers are with you, some can be pr-------s, whereas others maybe more considerate.

These next 2 weeks may seem to be a long time, and they are if you aren't feeling well, so I urge you to reply as much as you can. Geoff.