How do people deal with this? I struggle every day. It eats at me and I feel like I'm exploding and rotting. All logic swims away from me and I am in what seems irreparable insanity and misery. I don't have anyone to talk to or see. Don't even mention doctors or psychiatrists or psychologists, I have tried so many and have not found relief. I have stopped taking medication. I have good weeks, rarely and many bad nights with ok days sometimes awful days. I think loneliness makes this all worse than it would be. I don't think there's anything I can do.
