I don't know how to start off this post so I'll try to give context, I used to have two jobs, the first one that still pays me well and have been working with for 12 years now, the other I left due to a manager that didn't treat their employers well and was passive aggressive so I left not wanting to be treated poorly.
It started last year when I was not in a good place and I would rather not go into the details, however things took a dark turn when my previous dog passed away from an aggressive cancer and since that day things have not been the same.
Nowadays I still have my first job but can only work for one day a week, I spent a lot of money this year, mainly for my new dog who is great but requires a lot of work including finances, some of the money was spent on collecting figures and lastly some of it was spent investing into a hobby that I hoped would get me back on my feet but so far I still have not received payment for this hobby and I don't know where to go, I'm still living with my parents who do many great things for me and I'll be 30 next year, I wish I could earn more again than spend, I wish I could have my own place to live but I know finding a place to live is extremely difficult due to the cost.
I still miss my previous dog and struggle with my new one who I think it better off with my parents since I find socialization draining as an introvert, I feel like when I take one step forward I end up taking three steps back and I feel like a failure.
Sometimes I wonder if we are meant to just give up our happiness just to survive rather than live the life we want to.
I'm sure I'm not alone on this and there are many people who struggle just as much as I am.
I'm scared of talking to my parents since they want to know what I spend my money on and I'm scared they want to control my spending.
I'm thinking I should sell my property and put the money in a safe place to save up for eventually living in my own home.
I just wanted to vent and look for answers and hopefully start to get better from here on.
