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Confused.

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Hi everyone,Hope you are all well. Just some background info to begin with. I'm 21 years old and male. I go to university with 1 year left to go. I do everything normal people would in a way. Study, go out, go to the gym, work a part time job etc. Ye... View more

Hi everyone,Hope you are all well. Just some background info to begin with. I'm 21 years old and male. I go to university with 1 year left to go. I do everything normal people would in a way. Study, go out, go to the gym, work a part time job etc. Yet, something feels not quite there. I should be happy with what I have. Everybody else that's similar to me seems like they are happy with what they have.It's hard for me to articulate what I'm feeling because I don't exactly understand it myself. Sometimes it doesn't affect me - I feel normal, happy etc. However, when it does affect me I feel sad as if I just want to disappear from the world. This being said, I can't seem to understand what it is. I feel as though my life is never progressing forward. It is as if it is stagnating already. Like everyday will become the same old routine even though it isn't. I feel like I want to do one thing, yet end up doing another.It feels like all my friends are also there become of the circumstance (uni, school etc). Once I finish university, I'm not sure who my friends will be. It makes me feel lonely and scared at the same time. I can't seem to meet new people either. I can meet them and we can really get along. However, without something that allows us to constantly see one another (job, uni etc), I struggle to stay connected to said people. It makes me feel like I'm never going to make some real and everlasting friends. Everybody around me is advancing in their lives. New jobs, new relationships, etc. For me however, it's as if there are only 2 pillars holding me up: university and family. If you were to take away any one of these, then I would have nothing. Nothing to live for at all.I don't know if this will make sense to anyone. If anyone reads it and can relate, it'd be nice to know others that feel the same way. All the best ! beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636. Normal 0 false false false EN-AU X-NONE X-NONE /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0cm; mso-para-margin-right:0cm; mso-para-margin-bottom:8.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0cm; line-height:107%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-fareast-language:EN-US;}

Do I have anxiety?

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I know the only way to know for sure if I have anxiety is if I go see a doctor, but I just wanted to know other people's opinions here. I'm an obsessive thinker and mostly expect the worst. When I was younger, like maybe 11, I relied on my mum pickin... View more

I know the only way to know for sure if I have anxiety is if I go see a doctor, but I just wanted to know other people's opinions here. I'm an obsessive thinker and mostly expect the worst. When I was younger, like maybe 11, I relied on my mum picking me up from school. Since she worked far away, I was always the last kid left waiting. Sometimes I'd worry and panic about this, just being left on my own - I'm not sure why exactly, I always knew she'd come.. just the thought of being alone frightened me so much. It even took me a while to be comfortable with staying home alone. I've always worried about what other people think of me, and let their opinions of me define who I am. I guess I'm pretty insecure and that only worsens it. Since things are a bit rocky with my girlfriend at the moment, I panic that it isn't going to work out and it just upsets me. I somehow managed to convince myself I was schizophrenic, and a result, I suffered a panic attack. When I get slight headaches, I always expect the worst and worry it's something more. Whenever I hear of a young healthy person that got struck with an unfortunate disease, I panic the same will happen to me. Are these all symptoms of a person with anxiety, or am I just a worry-wort? When I manage to calm myself down, I feel okay. But when I get panicked, I'm just not the same person and I feel so down and negative about everything.

I think I have depression.

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I am not sure if I do have depression or not. My close friends think I do, they think I should go and see a doctor, the thing is, I don't want to tell my parents that I think I might have depression, and I can't go to the doctors or a GP without them... View more

I am not sure if I do have depression or not. My close friends think I do, they think I should go and see a doctor, the thing is, I don't want to tell my parents that I think I might have depression, and I can't go to the doctors or a GP without them. I am not entirely sure of the reason/s I have been down, other than the usual stories, didn't achieve well at school, I had a falling out with a good friend, and I always look down on myself and don't go to people for help, as I am worried I will get annoying. My parents have made it quite hard on me as of late, and most of my mates are saying 'all parents make it hard,' and 'you'll get over it soon enough.' I have been feeling this way for over 3 months, and I am worried of the outcome my behavior will have on my friends. Please help me, I need all the help I can get at this moment in time. Extra info: I am a 15yo girl with no job (no way of paying for any doctors appointment myself)

how do I get help

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Hello, For the last year I've been feeling constantly sad and irritable, but I've always blamed my feelings and anxiety on school (tests, exams etc). However in the last two months it has become clear that that is not the case, I have no motivation t... View more

Hello, For the last year I've been feeling constantly sad and irritable, but I've always blamed my feelings and anxiety on school (tests, exams etc). However in the last two months it has become clear that that is not the case, I have no motivation to do anything and I've lost interest interest in things I use to enjoy. I'm constantly tired and have a lot of trouble managing my anxiety (I've missed school and work because of it). I'm constantly feeling empty and I don't know what to do. I know the obvious answer is to talk to my parents but I have no idea how to open up about how I'm feeling, they will either not take me seriously or over react. I've never had that kind of relationship with them where I feel like I can talk about anything, so any advice on how to do so would be much appreciated.

I find it hard to cope.

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Well here we go, my third post on Beyond blue. I've told a present situation, the story that got me here, guess it's time for how depression affects me daily.You know, as I'm writing this, it feels harder to write about than the abuse, but here we go... View more

Well here we go, my third post on Beyond blue. I've told a present situation, the story that got me here, guess it's time for how depression affects me daily.You know, as I'm writing this, it feels harder to write about than the abuse, but here we go. I don't really know a life without depression, a day where I hide behind a video game or a story, to get away from my own feelings, a day where I don't think about everything bad. I don't remember the last time I was able to sleep without a good hour or two just thinking to myself about how bad everything is. To me, there is no such thing as a good day, just bad days, and neutral days. Day by day throwing a fake smile so as not to attract more attention than I can handle. It's so hard to understand, how three hours of social activity, or family event, can be more exhausting than a full days physical labor. How sometimes getting the motivation to do simple things like eat, or bathe, or go shopping, seems like a simply impossible task. How sometimes you want to talk about everything, yet not talk to anyone at the same time. Wanting someone to understand yet lying and saying I'm okay when they ask. I'm sure all of this is familiar to some people, but I felt I needed to talk about it anyway, putting words to this feeling was difficult. My original posts for those interested were titled I never knew christmas cykd be so rough, and i guess this is my life story.

Is it manipulation, or just my anxiety?

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So I have a friend online who I like talking to, and to be honest, they're pretty much my only friend, but at times I have this feeling they are trying to control, or manipulate, me. They seem to get a bit possessive too. Our conversation starts off ... View more

So I have a friend online who I like talking to, and to be honest, they're pretty much my only friend, but at times I have this feeling they are trying to control, or manipulate, me. They seem to get a bit possessive too. Our conversation starts off okay, but after a while they seem to get passive-aggressive and make me feel uncomfortable. I don't really know if I'm taking things the wrong way, or if there's something going on. But after our talks, I'm often left feeling intimidated and anxious. To be honest, I've been suspicious that they have been trying to 'mould' me in to someone they want me to be. I feel like I'm punished by silent treatment, or passive-aggression, every time I say something they don't like. And in the meantime, they try to convince me to try certain things that they like, even after I say I'm not interested. And most conversations leads to that point. It starts off calm, and enjoyable, but then gets really stressful. It's at the point now that I'm scared to talk to them, I won't even log in to my social network account anymore. Every time we talk, I feel like my head is being messed with. The thing is though, is that I have Avoidant Personality Disorder, so being paranoid of other people is a problem with me. So I'm not sure if I should trust my own instincts that something is wrong, or ignore it because it could be my anxiety playing tricks on me. The worst part is they aren't exactly saying anything bad, so I can't be assertive with them. It's their actions that are upsetting me, and I don't really know how to explain it. All I know is I don't like it. It sucks too because as I said before, they are basically my only friend. I do know other people online, but we're more acquaintances then friends, so we don't really talk much. So I don't know, I'm scared I'm just going to end up pushing away the last person I have left.

Losing friendships

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Recently, i have just moved in with a good friend of mine Peter (not his real name) and his girlfriend Jess (not her real name either). Me and Peter have been great friends for the past few years, we would talk on the phone all the time, we would han... View more

Recently, i have just moved in with a good friend of mine Peter (not his real name) and his girlfriend Jess (not her real name either). Me and Peter have been great friends for the past few years, we would talk on the phone all the time, we would hang out all the time, we would help each other out with advise etc. I also have another great friend called Fred (not his real name) and me and Fred almost do the same things. However Fred hasn't met Peter and Jess. In the past few weeks since i've been living with Peter and Jess, they have been wanting me to help them out with money like help pay for Peter's fuel since he drives me around or for groceries or even some rent for them since Peter goes broke everytime he gets paid because he has to pay for Jess's rent. I have even had to pay for Jess. They say they hate asking me for money, they do owe me some money but they say it won't be for a while. They even said for me not to ask them for money and i haven't!! It was annoying me inside so i was texting Fred how much it was annoying me that i had to pay for them, like alot. I tried to tell Peter and Jess that i can't pay for this or i can't pay for that, but they don't want to seem to listen. I also was telling Fred that Peter and Jess were saying me and Fred were gay (as a joke) since we always text each other. So Fred got really angry and sent a harrassing facebook message to Peter. He said that they need to stop asking me for money, that they need to start paying for their own things, that they need to stop calling us gay, if they keep asking me for money, he will call the police. When Peter read it, he fired up really bad. He wanted me to leave the property i am living in them with. He eventually calmed down. He said that him and Jess have now lost respect for me and don't trust me anymore until i change big time. One of Jess's friends has just moved in with us to make rent cheaper and just because i talked behind Jess and Peter's backs, she's talking to me like a smart ass, so overall she doesn't like me. I was given two ultimatiums by Peter, he said either be friends with him and Jess, gain their respect and trust back and stop being friends with Fred or stop being friends with Peter and Jess, never contact them again and leave the house i'm at. I chose the first one, i had to tell Fred that i can't be friends with him anymore and i hated hated that i had to do that. I'm feeling so down, i don't feel like doing anything....

Confused about some symptoms...anyone know?

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Hey everyone, hope you're all coping. To those reading; thank you dearly. I just had a quick question about a feeling I keep getting. Is chest pressure an anxiety feeling? I keep feeling somewhat shot of breath and as if somethings lightly pressing o... View more

Hey everyone, hope you're all coping. To those reading; thank you dearly. I just had a quick question about a feeling I keep getting. Is chest pressure an anxiety feeling? I keep feeling somewhat shot of breath and as if somethings lightly pressing on my chest; sometimes worse than other times, and on my diaphragm too. I've been told it's a symptom of anxiety, which I do have, but it's only come about in the last few months. I figured it's safest to check. The bit that confuses me is that it comes out of no where, and when I'm not feeling anxious. However then I DO feel slightly worried because of the feeling, and I overthink what's happening to me (I immediately think the worst; heart problems etc, even though I'm sure it's not). I just really want some light shed on this! I don't know what to think of it, does anyone else feel this? Does anyone know what ways of dealing with this are? Thanks so much guys!

Today is the first day I have ever talked my anxiety. I need help.

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Hello, I hope this is appropriate. Saying this is scary. I have struggled with social anxiety for as long as I can remember. It has felt crippling. Nobody knows because I have never dared to tell anyone. Feeling better now but earlier today I had a b... View more

Hello, I hope this is appropriate. Saying this is scary. I have struggled with social anxiety for as long as I can remember. It has felt crippling. Nobody knows because I have never dared to tell anyone. Feeling better now but earlier today I had a breakdown/breakthrough and for the first time voiced my problems. In writing at least. I entered the following stream of consciousness into a word document: It is 7:18PM as I type this I am crying. I hate myself. I hate my mother. I hate my life. Nothing is going right at all. My mum just blamed me for her health problems, her unhappiness, everything. It is all my fault she says. She has said she hates herself and it is my fault for being a failure. She gets mad at me for doing nothing with my life. But how do I tell her about anxiety when I have heard her mock the idea of mental health. She thinks both anxiety and depression are fake. I cannot talk to her. I cannot talk to my friends, they’d laugh at me. When the headnoise becomes dominant I feel so alone. I know other people have these problems but I still feel so alone. The only thing that has ever worked is alcohol but I know that is only a short term fix and I go months without touching it because both my parents are alcoholics and that problem is the last thing I need I am 25. I am a uni dropout, I have never had a job. I so desperately want to get a job, any kind of job, and get out of here. But I cannot. Partly because I fear my moms functional alcoholism will get out of control and she will drink herself to death. And partly because of the crippling social anxiety that is ruining my life. I quit uni because the fear of failure in my exams felt like the worst torture. And the thought of a job interview makes my hands shake. I know it is irrational, but it feels so real. So frightening. So debilitating. 7 years have passed since high school and I have done nothing with my life in that time. I want more from life, but I fear before long my youth will be gone and I will have nothing to show for what is meant to be the best time of your life. I am controlled by my fears and anxieties. I want to be happier. I want to be less anxious and scared. But I don’t know how to fix it. ________ This is a big day for me. The first time I share my deepest secret and ask for help. I want to get better but I don't know how. I have heard about BeyondBlue before and was hoping I could find some advice here. I hope the above was not TMI. Thank you for your time.

A start

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Hi! Not sure how many people are seeing this at all, so here it goes I've struggled with severe depression in the past following on from an abusive relationship, and now that I'm through that, I struggle with anxiety. It was worst when I was battling... View more

Hi! Not sure how many people are seeing this at all, so here it goes I've struggled with severe depression in the past following on from an abusive relationship, and now that I'm through that, I struggle with anxiety. It was worst when I was battling depression as well, but still plays up a lot today, and I don't know much about it. My family are amazing but don't understand what's happening to me very well, and sometimes even I find it scary and confusing, which I'm sure is normal. I have many questions to ask while I'm here, and I'm so hopeful that someone out there will read and respond to even one of my threads Still figuring out how to use the site, but figured I'd start it off with this. Thank you so much for reading! Best wishes and love to you all

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Do I have anxiety?

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I think I have depression.

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how do I get help

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I find it hard to cope.

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Is it manipulation, or just my anxiety?

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Losing friendships

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Confused about some symptoms...anyone know?

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Today is the first day I have ever talked my anxiety. I need help.

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Confused.

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Do I have anxiety?

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I think I have depression.

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how do I get help

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I find it hard to cope.

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Is it manipulation, or just my anxiety?

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Losing friendships

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Confused about some symptoms...anyone know?

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Today is the first day I have ever talked my anxiety. I need help.

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A start

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