(This is more of what I wanted to post grrr)
Dools, it's hard to know what to say, about the loss of your children. In the first instance I would feel totally overwhelmed with the loss, ah, but, more... it's so sorrowful, so unfair, so for me, unimaginable. I wouldn’t want to ignore this either, so if you want, I’ll listen.
I admit, I smirked at how your employment officer found you a whole 3 sessions with a counsellor. A whole 3! You know what it's like, you barely get past 'hello' durring the first session, & with answering the 'housekeeping' questions. Do you think you could negotiate a reduced fee with him? At least talk about it with him? I don't know how often you envision seeing him, but I wonder if you'd feel comfortable with seeing him less often?
For myself, I wouldn't be comfortable about asking, or even accepting an offer from my PDr to charge me less. I felt it might disturb the relationship, make it feel like I 'owe' him something, & that was a little red flag for me. So, hard as it is on my bank account, I refused his offer.
It would be a difficult decision, but whatever, I hope you can work something out, something you can feel comfortable with.
Get onto that artwork, I say, if only as a distraction, or maybe an expression of yourself & your creativity. It's all good!
❤️mmMekitty
