Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums RedJam88. You can have hope that you will get back on track, especially as you are doing something about it. You have started on your journey of recovery, well done, persist on a mental health plan and you will come to much more happiness and calmness.
Recently I was reminded of the value of positive self talk, it's worth being aware of what you say to your self. I too 'struggled to meet new people' and I changed my self talk to 'I love meeting new people', at the least it reduced my anxiety and I developed a healthier positive attitude when meeting new people. And I guess you may not be passionate about the products your business produces but I hope you can be passionate and proud about your family business. In terms of getting back home, planning is key. What are you passionate about? What ambitions do you have and can you start to research and develop your career options in between your current job?
It might help to keep your concerns separate, even write them down on paper, start to build goals and plans to achieve your goals in each area, small steps each day. Tonight, thank your self for having the courage to get the ball rolling, you did it, you are a bit closer to where you want to be, you will get there. I hope you keep in touch.
Jack
