Hey guys
I've been on SSRI's for 9 months straight now and taken them on and off a few times before. Last time I stopped taking them (around this time last year) was very foggy. But my doctor told me it was because I felt so sluggish and dead and then so alive off them. It didnt turn out well, and took a long time to recover.
This time, I;m surprised to say I'm experiencing the same sort of thing. I've been depressed and fatigued and feeling 'stoned' for months now. I forgot to take my meds two weeks ago and was energized, but I just took it as a good day. Today I forgot my meds and couldnt go back home for them as it was a busy day. Usually I am someone who suffers social anxiety, even crossing the road is stressful for me because I think everyone in the cars is staring. Today though, well, completely out of character. I don't want to call it manic because I could sit still and what not. My brain was different though, it was high. I swore at strangers that annoyed me and embarrassed my mum in the shopping center by over reacting to everything. I struggled to hold a conversation without just talking over people or being distracted by something else.
So really what I'm getting at is today I did things that on my SSRI would leave me MORTIFIED and I just don't care. What is up with that? Shouldn't I be more depressed and anxious? I don't want to stop taking the meds because last time I crashed and turned into a sobbing mess that couldnt leave the house.
Other times that I have forgotten my medication, I've usually remembered before I even left the house due to such high emotional stress and crying and distorted thinking.
Whats going on? Is this normal?
